Lost

Invisible

I didn't know what to say...

So I said nothing.

I watched you for weeks,

Getting close, friendly.

Hoping that you would see me too.

But I was invisible.

It's nothing new.

I'm used to it by now.

I have this undying fear that this is how my life will go forever...

Unwanted.

Unloved.

But the thing is,

I'm not unloved.

There are people who feel for me how I feel for you.

But they don't have the same grip on me that you do.

The pull you have on my heart and mind is ridiculous really.

I can't even explain why I feel this way.

Could it be the curve of your Lips when you Smile?

The Light that seems to radiate from your Eyes?

An interior that matches and amplifies your stunning exterior?

The Talents and Brains that you don't brag about, but definitely should?

The fact that you could do anything you put your mind to?

Your Humility about all your gifts?

A combination of it all?

What makes you so special?

Why am I Stuck on you?

Your eyes see someone else.

Your heart is being pulled in a completely different direction,

Never to wander on this desolate beach,

And I'll remain invisible.

So I'll remain friendly,

And I'll try to get over you.

hopefully I'll get past you.

Because the worst pain you could feel

Is thinking about someone that you know is not thinking about you,

And I don't know how much longer I can handle this constant pain.

                                                                         -J.M.