Honey

6 - do you enjoy breaking hearts?

I stepped out of the shower to see a set of clothes lying beside the sink. Mingyu must have put them there. I didn't hear him come nor leave. What if he peeked on me!? Okay no, chill out Wonwoo. He wouldn't do that, right?

I dried myself quickly and wore white button-up and loose pants Mingyu had lent me. The outfit looked quite good on me actually. Boyfriend clothes hehe... oH NO WAIT! I can't think like this. If I do, I might fall for him. That can't happen...Why not?It's... dangerous? Hurtful? Definitely.

You could also just quit fronting and let yourself fall Jeon Wonwoo. I mean he does seem like one hell of a great guy... But I don't know so until now, keep fronting.

I walked out into the kitchen. Mingyu sat on a chair, looking at his phone. He's probably texting Jun or scrolling through his SNS. I stood there for a while, just staring at him. I then decided it was getting creepy, and sat down beside him. He looked up from his phone.

"When will my clothes be done?"

"I don't know, in an hour maybe?"

"An hour?"

"Yeah around that" He got up and held out his hand. "Come on, do you want to go to the living room?"

"Sure, why not" I got up, and walked to the living room, leaving him standing there, with his arm stretched out. Ha, good job! He came in a couple minutes later with his laptop.

"Do you like anime?" He asked with a smile, as he sat down beside me.

I nodded.

"Great! Jisoo-hyung recommended one called Noragami, I think? Do you want to watch it with me?"

"Yeah! I have actually been wanting to watch it, I heard it should be very good! I didn't know Jisoo-hyung liked anime though"

"Okay, then let's watch it! Oh and trust me, he does. He made us all watch Bungo Stray Dogs, Bleach, and even One Piece! He just wouldn't shut up about it."

"One Piece!? But that shit has so many episodes!"

"I know right!"

"Jisoo-hyung is crazy. All those girls should know, that the person they're chasing is a total loser."

"Totally! I bet they would regret their life choices"

I let out a chuckle/giggle. Truthfully, I wasn't sure what it was nor how I managed to do it. I mean, my voice was deep as heck.

"Wow" He smiled brightly, a faint blush visible on his cheeks.

"Wow what?"

"That was adorable!" he squealed

"No" I deadpanned.

"Yes, it was! Fight me!"

I rolled up my sleeves as if I was getting ready to throw a punch.

"Hey hey hey, chill. I was kidding." He said, all nervous.

That's right, Kim Mingyu. Fear me. I started laughing hysterically, clapping my hands, slapping my thighs, the couch, Mingyu.

"What's so funny?" He asked all flustered.

"Your reaction. I know I seem intimidating, but know this, I am not violent. At least not physically. I am able to roast your butt, however, so be warned. Don't mess with me, Kim Mingyu"

"You sound like Jihoon-hyung. Now that I think about it, you two resemble each other..."

"Except I'm hotter?" I deadpanned, once again.

He laughed. Then there was silence. We just sat like that for a while, staring into the air without saying anything. That was until Mingyu spoke up.

"Do you not like me, Wonwoo?"

I looked at him, not saying anything. I was dumbfounded by his question to be completely honest. I wanted to tell him he was wrong. That I actually did like him. Even more, than I wanted to. But something was holding me back.

"Why not? Why don't you like me? If you don't like me, why didn't you just leave? It's not like I locked you up here"

"Mingyu-"

"No. You don't have to act like you're enjoying yourself. If you don't want to be here, save me from the hurting and leave"

"It's not-"

"Wonwoo, shut your mouth. Honestly, why are you being nice to me now? You have been ignoring me all week, you have been acting like a jerk to me and only me. I have only been nice to you. Why-"

"You shut the hell up Mingyu!" I shouted. "Let me speak, damn it! I don't know why you think I'm acting. I'm not a fake bitch like the ones you've possibly been fucking, honestly. Is it wrong of me to save myself from getting hurt? I do you like. I mean, I did before you started acting like this. Why the heck did you get all shady all of a sudden. What the actual fuck did I do huh? Nothing! I was having fun. I was enjoying myself. This is why I avoid fuckboys and idiots like you. Telling me I can tell you whatever I'm feeling after just seeing me for the first time. Being all nice. Why the hell did you do that!? Do you enjoy breaking hearts Kim Mingyu?"

He just stared, dumbfounded.

I got up and left.

I heard him shout after me, and a door slamming. I wanted to escape, so I ran. As fast as I could. I knew he was following me. He kept shouting, pleading me to slow down. I didn't care. I ran towards the river.

How dare he? He brought me to his house, we had fun, and after 20 minutes, he starts shading me for no reason. How stupid of me to let my guard down.

I kept running. I felt like my lungs would explode but I couldn't stop. I ran even though I felt like dying. I ran even though I reached Han River. I knew he was still following me. I could feel his presence behind me. Until he was gone, I had to keep running.

In the next moment, I felt how the world hated me. I felt how it kept betraying me. It's over. I thought as I felt my body hit the ground. Hurriedly, I tried to get up, but fell right back, letting out a pain-filled scream. Then I felt hands on my body. I could hear his voice. I felt suffocated. I had never wanted to die this much. I wanted my suffering to stop. Right then and there. I wanted someone to shoot me. To cut my throat. To break my neck. I wanted to scream, but my cries blocked any other sound from coming out.

I cried.

I cried, out all the tears I had been holding back.

I cried, out all the pain I had inside.

I cried because it was the only thing I could.

I cried because I liked the feeling of being in his tight embrace.

I cried until my tears dried out.

Then I stopped crying.

We sat like that for a while. I hid my face in his shoulder. He patted my back, stroked my hair, held me tight. I wanted time to stop. I wanted to live in this moment forever.

Is it possible to love someone you don't really know? Do I love him? No matter how nice this is, I can't be with him. Not until I'm completely sure. But I can put down my guard, right? It would feel wrong to put it back up. He has already seen me like this now. I have made myself vulnerable. I need to tell him about me. He has to know. I have to know if he can handle me.

"I'm so sorry" He spoke. "I'm so sorry, you didn't deserve that. I was acting immature"

"Mingyu?"

"Yes?"

"Will you listen to what I have to say? Even if it's intense and possibly burdening?"

"I said I would, didn't I?" He replied with an assuring smile.

"Okay"