Honey

8 - preperations

Wonwoo's POV

I woke up feeling all cozy and warm. Even though I didn't get much sleep. I cuddled closer to the body next to me and closed my eyes again. So warm. I laid like that for a while, just taking in the scent of the other male, my body being all warm under the white sheet. I let my hands feel the soft skin of the tan chest and pressed my head onto the side of the stomach I was carelessly touching.

Then reality hit me like a snowball thrown by a happy child, high on the Christmas spirit.

Holy fuck what am I doing?

I was aware that we went to sleep cuddling but I was so tired I didn't even process it. I mean, it was nice but a bit weird. We had only known each other for less than a week anyway. I sat up and slowly and carefully stood up from the bed to not wake Mingyu up.

Dang, he looks cute when he sleeps. Can I like... wake up to this every day? Pffft just kidding! (kinda) I have my own house and I doubt his parents would let him live there, or let me live here. Besides, I have Bimil and- hOLY SHIT, BIMIL! And Junhui! I looked at the clock on the nightstand. 14:36 already, I gotta Tao!

I quickly put on my clothes and searched his room for paper and a pen. It was rather easy finding what I needed since his room was very neat and clean. I found it quite unbelievable, that such a person as Kim Mingyu –a hyper and clumsy as fuck kid– would have such a nice room, but everything is possible.

I scribbled down my excuse for leaving on the piece of paper. It kind of felt like one of those cliché stories you hear about one night stands. A to persons crashing at one of their homes (or a hotel) to go do the deed. And then one of them would leave, just like that, early in the morning, before the other woke up. It was kind of like that, except me and Mingyu didn't have sex, and I was leaving a note... Oh, how nice I am. I wrote down the message and left the paper on the nightstand to keep the lonely alarm clock company.

'Good morning Gyu,

Thank you for taking me in and washing my clothes yesterday,y

and thank you for, you know, the other stuff.

I'm sorry for leaving like this, but I remembered, I made plans.

Have a nice day:)

- Wonwoo'

I reflected what I wrote while walking out of the front door, and down the street. Why did I make it sound like we did have a one-night stand, or like we are dating? For god's sake Wonwoo, get your shit together! Then I called Junhui because I actually had no idea when the party was or what the address was.

"Hey Wonwoo, what's up?"

"Hey, Junhui. I was just wondering when I should come over"

"It's great that you brought it up, I was actually going to ask you something as well"

"Yea?"

"Ok so, I didn't clean up my house, can we get ready at your place instead?"

"That would be fine! When will you be over?"

"The party is at 9 so... about 6 pm? Would that be okay?"

"Sure, but isn't that early?"

"Maybe. But trust me, you never know how long it will take to get ready. Because you listen to music and play around... or is that just me?"

"To be honest, I never cared too much about parties, so it's probably just you," I said laughing slightly

"What!? You never went to a party!?"

"I did... quite a lot, actually" I paused, "What I meant was: I just threw on random clothes and ruffled my hair, and boom, I went to get wasted"

"Pfft okay. Well, it's time to change your carelessness for I, your party guide Wen Junhui, will make sure you look decent when you leave the house. I mean what's the point of going to a party looking like a bum? You need to bless people with your breathtaking looks!" I could feel him roll his eyes "God, Wonwoo. You're so uneducated"

I laughed once again. This time, a bit louder.

"Oh, you think I have breathtaking looks? I'll make sure to flash them then" I wiggled my brows teasingly even though he wouldn't be able to see.

"I was talking about myself, your dimwit"

"Hey, I was joking! And don't get too cocky there. You might be handsome but-" I was cut off

"Ha! You just admitted I am handsome. There you have it. I need to flash my looks so people can be blessed. Anyways, you don't look too bad yourself, do you?"

"I guess?"

I opened the door to my apartment, and let Bimil in.

"You don't. I have to go eat now, I'm starving~"

"Fine. Go eat, you pig. Bone app the teeth"

"You're so lame, Wonwoo. I can't take it. Bye~ See you at 6!"

I laughed for the nth time. "See you"

I put my phone in the charger and went to the kitchen to cook some ramen. I hadn't eaten since yesterday evening at the convenience store, so I was quite hungry. Normally, I would have ignored the hunger, but since I was going to be drinking, I would rather stay safe. I didn't want to get drunk off of the first sip.

It happens once, or kind of. I drank only a quarter of a cup of alcohol and got drunk since I was so skinny. I didn't want that happening tonight. I lost a lot of weight before I moved here, more than what's healthy. So to be sure I would be able to control myself through the night, I would have to eat. When I got too drunk, I was not able to control anything and I would forget everything when I woke up at a random place in town the next morning.

I found some chopsticks and started eating the steamy hot dish. While eating, I started thinking about what would happen later. Would Mingyu be at the party too? Would I get too drunk to think straight as usual? Would I get drunk at all? There was a lot of questions I would have to wait to get answered.

I closed my eyes and focused on the spicy noodles filling out my mouth. My jaw working on turning the food into a disgusting looking paste, before it would slide down my throat and through the rest of my system, to at some point go down the toilet. And after agreeing with myself, that poop wouldn't be the thing to think about while eating, my thoughts flew to the upcoming events of the night once again. And I found myself being excited by just Junhui coming over.

You need to get a boyfriend, or else you'll end up turning even more gay and desperate to get with someone, that you'll get a crush on whoever. I thought to myself. Not because I had a crush on Jun, or was developing one. Not because he would be a bad person to have a crush on or a bad boyfriend. Quite the opposite for that matter. He would probably be great. It was because:

- I knew that I liked Mingyu. At least just a bit.

- Because I knew I could feel my heart flutter last night, and in the morning.

- Because I felt warm and comfortable, being with him.

- Also because I wasn't sure if that was me falling in love, or me being desperate to feel love.

- And lastly, because this could very well be the same case with Junhui or even Soonyoung or anyone else I got close with.

All that would be too much to handle. I wanted and needed it to be simple.