In Her Mind

Blood memories .4.

After the previous night's kill , I had to run home . The rain was helpful as it washed away my blood soaked appearance , but it was also annoying as it dripped on my hoodie , making me cold .

As soon as I reached the bunker I stripped , pummeled my clothes into the washing machine and then I sprang into the shower . The boiling water heated my skin up .

Again I scrubbed my skin raw . I climbed out , pulled on PJ's and snuggled into bed .

All this distracted me from my memories , but as soon as I was warmed up and doing nothing but thinking in my bed , they returned .

The memories of that night . That horrible night at our prom dance .

Connor-Luke and I were going together . I wore the most beautiful skin tight red dress with black accents . My long black hair was braided with red ribbons . My makeup was done in a smokey eye and blood red lips .

Connor told me I looked beautiful . He wore a black suit with a red tie and accessories to match .

I told him he looked handsome . His liquid brown eyes stared into mine , and everything was right in the world .

A happy prom memory .

Until it wasn't as happy anymore .

We were already inside the venue for about 2 hours when Connor took off to get us some drinks . I trusted him , so I didn't think anything would happen .

The couples were dancing to the song playing super loud . I wanted to dance too , if only he could hurry up .

From the corner of the room , I noticed Daniel . He was trouble and I knew I needed to stay clear . The last thing an alone girl wanted was the attention of Daniel .

He was perverted and way too old to be stuck in school . But unfortunately he didn't get the smartest brain and a few years of flunking meant he was stuck as a senior .

It was no secret that he went after virgin girls . After getting them in bed he would flaunt the fact that he popped their cherries , he'd humiliate and harass the girl some more before he left her and continued to the next .

Sometimes he even took them by force , threatened them that if they pressed charges against him , that he would kill them .

He was a mean looking guy and the girls were already so traumatized that they didn't dare go against him .

He was filth . Utter filth .

To my luck he saw me and started walking over . Why wouldn't Connor hurry ? I needed him then .

I knew I could pack a punch but back then I was a scared girl who relied on others to fight her battles .

I shifted my gaze and hoped that he would just leave me alone . He didn't .

My breath caught in my throat and my anxiety spiked . I needed Connor now !

"Sweetheart , where's your date ? Didn't he show you a good time ?" He whispered into my ear and touched my arm .

"Piss off Daniel , Connor won't like you touching me." I recoiled from him .

"Now now , I barely even began to touch you . I have to say , you're looking quite enticing tonight with that red tight revealing dress . It's as though you're begging me to touch you ." He smiled exposing his yellow teeth and revolting breath . His hand reached further up my arm to my shoulder , then he grasped my neck .

No this wasn't going to happen . No ! Panic sparked in my eyes and I screamed murder !
"CONNOR ! HELP ME !"

Finally Connor was at my side again , staring at me , his gaze travelled to the arm of Daniel and how he groped my shoulder .

Connor-Luke was at least 6.3 feet and he had a muscular build ,Daniel trailed just a bit under his height but had the same build .

I could see that my date was really mad , when he was in a calm state he would be as furious as it could get .

"Get away from Rose you pervert , before I make you go away . You know I keep my word." Connor seethed .

Daniel looked at me and at Connor . "Whatever man , I was just joking , keep the bitch for all I care."

Then he turned on his heel and walked away .

I started to sob and cry . I was so afraid . "Hold me Connor , please." My soft cries could barely be heard .

He did as I asked and kept on saying soothing words to me . Sympathizing with me . My makeup was smudged and I looked horrible .

"I wanna go Connor . Let's go to the bunker ." And that's where he took me .

Later on we were curled up on the couch of the bunker watching old movies . I was a consoled at last .

It eventually got late and it was time for us to go to our houses .

"Thank you Connor." And I gave him a passionate long kiss . Where our lips touched were sparks . As our tongues intertwined we felt fire like never before .

This was dangerous , and neither of us were ready for that level of our relationship now .

I slightly pushed him away and caught up to my breath .
He drove me home in silence .

I climbed out the car and thanked him again .

Then he took me by surprise , he never did directly say that he loved me . But that night he did .

"I love you Rose Black ."
I looked at him and nodded "I love you too Connor-Luke Ross."

I watched as he drove away in his car .

Tonight ended rather well I thought , but Murphy's law had it coming for me .

A figure snuck up behind me and covered my mouth with a cloth reeking of chloroform to knock me out .

The figure dragged my limp sleeping body away to the woods .

I came to after a while .
And there he was , Daniel.

"We're going to have fun now darling , and loverboy isn't here to save you this time . Shhh now , don't worry , I'm just going to hurt you ."

He snickered and kicked me in the stomach . He tied my arms and legs to trees , but didn't bother to gag me to stop my screams .

He peeled my dress off of me , followed by my underwear , and there I lied , stark naked in front of a man I never wanted to be with in the first place .

He touched my shoulders and neck again , then he continued lower and lower , groping more intimate parts .

I cried and begged for mercy , for him to stop . But my pleas fell silent to his ears .

And that night he raped me , cut me , took pictures of me that would ruin everything .

He raped me in every way imaginable.

After he was done I was covered from head to toe in human liquids , my own blood and his filth .

Then he left me without giving back my clothes .
He took my innocence , my pride , my dignity . He took the weak girl out of me .

I pulled my last strength together and walked home .

The memories stopped and I couldn't remember more . I wanted to cry but I didn't . I laughed at the mess I was before I started killing .

Even if that night crushed me , I was glad it happened , because it made me stronger .

I was silently thankful for my blood filled memories .