In Her Mind

Blood continued .17.

The moment was over and a awkward deadly silence filled the room. I knew he would ask why I turned suicidal so fast , and I would have to admit that I still really loved him. I would also have to ask some things , like why and how he got out of his room . I would have to lock him up again , I couldn't trust anyone , not even Conner .

I didn't want to begin the conversation , part of me wanted the peace to last, but repercussions were inevitable. Slowly I inched away from him , hostility oozing out of my pores . With my eyes closed and my voice filled with pain , I asked him .

"Why did you leave your room ?" I asked gruffly.

"Because I needed to check on you ."

"Bullshit !"

"I swear Rose , I won't ever lie to you again ! I'm telling the truth!"

"Then how did you get out of your room in the first place ?"

" I heard your painful groans , you were stumbling around the bunker and went to open my door. I was standing right in front of you but it was like you couldn't see me , like I was invisible. The next moment you go berserk screaming and crying , and I'm trying to find out whats wrong . Somehow you got out of my sight and before I could stop you you sliced your wrist . I could stop the bleeding though . You were so weak Rose , I was so afraid of losing you for real ."

I stayed silent through the whole ordeal , analyzing each and every thing he said to me, trying to see if he was lying to me . Some things were sketchy but most added up . I remember before going into the bunker that I tripped and hit my head , maybe I hallucinated ?

He looked at me questionably , but I still stayed silent . It was his turn after all.

"Rose ? Why did you do it Rose ?"

I stared blankly at him , I really didn't want to answer him . Darkness overwhelmed me and my eyes turned to stone , looking him dead in the eye .

He shivered at the way I stared , it hurt me to hurt him , but this was for his own safety . I had to tell him the truth , he deserved that , but I would have to hurt him with it .

""I did it because I was vulnerable , because I love you and because I cared for you . But I can't afford to be weak anymore , you make me weak."
I ended coldly , breaking away from him and leaving him unsure about us .

A small tear escaped him and he sat there , staring into my eyes as I locked the door on him .

I walked heavy steps to my room and then started to assess my wall of pictures and unknown people .

I don't know for how long I was unconscious , but it was about time to terrorize the city again .

I got my hoodie and blood soaked sneakers , I hid my on my body . I looked at the wall contemplating who will die tonight . My eyes scanned the exed out pictures and the blurry faces .

One stood out to me , a picture of someone who looked like Connor . It couldn't be him , he wasn't going to die soon.

The same blue eyes stared back at me , and the facial expressions were familiar yet there was some difference . A little bit of information was written on a torn piece of paper next to the photo . I quickly memorize the info and put on my makeup so I wouldn't be noticed.

I quickly check the lock on Connor's door again , then slip out of the bunker , hiding the entrance.

I set out to stalk my prey and to regain my memory .

I keep walking for about 20 minutes , just wandering through the city , enjoying the busy sounds while I'm looking for my victim .

I turn the corner and suddenly I bump into a tall figure, my hoodie getting soaked by his smoothie . Him .He mumbles out how sorry he is , trying to clean up his mess , I know it's time to begin my fun .

He tries to wipe the gunk off of my hoodie , and I tell him it's okay , it's my fault . He looks into my green eyes  curiously. I am kind of mad at him for spilling on me , but it's okay , because soon I would kill him .

"Have I seen you around before ? You look familiar ..." he asks me.

"No , I haven't seen you ever before ... I'm Rose by the way." I smile innocently at him . Oh if only he knew what was going to happen .

He brushes his dirty blond hair out of his face and then continues " I'm Matt and I am so sorry about your clothes , let me buy you a smoothie to make up for it ?"

I accept the offer telling him it's okay and that it was both our fault . We went into a nearby shop and I sat down as he went to order .

He bought two chocolate milkshakes and I eyed it suspiciously . If there's one thing I learned , it's to never trust anyone .

"Hey Matt ? I know it's a little late , but can you swap mine for a vanilla milkshake ? " he nodded his head and left his drink on the table .

When nobody was looking , I slipped a crushed sleeping pill into his drink and stirred it up .

He came back smiling and handed me my milkshake . We walked out of the shop into the street talking. I took a sip ,enjoying the refreshing flavour.

Suddenly I began to laugh which caused him to laugh and ask why .

"Well you see , vanilla and white always make me think of death , which is pretty ironic since you're going to be dead soon."

His expression changed to one of horror .

"Yeah that's right Matt . I'm Rose Black , and you're 10 minutes away from hell ... now shall we continue our festivities ?"

I smiled wickedly as his eyes started to roll back , his body slumping to the floor and me dragging him off to the woods ...