Another Chance [COMPLETE]

Chapter 20: Help!

Cristin’s POV

 

Ako’y nababaliw na dito. Naspespeech less ako sa mga pinaggagawa nila for the past two weeks.

 

Hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko! Sino ba talaga heart?! T^T

 

“Girls, tulungan niyo naman ako…. T^T”

“Han, wala kami maitutulong. Ang puso mo lang ang makakapag sabi sino ang panalo” –Lee

“Pero ayaw ako kausapin ni heart TT^TT”

“Aba wala kami magagawa jan” –Eli

 

Andito pala kami sa bahay ko ngayon. Kaming mga girls lang.

 

“Naman oh. Help lang. Kung kayo ba sino ang pipiliin niyo?”

“Hmm… hard to say. Pero kung ako, siguro si Miguel. Mas kilala mo yun at muhkang mas minahal mo kasi sa kanya ka lang talaga nag effort eh. Tsaka loyal ha, ilang years ka rin minahal nun nga patago” –Lee

“If you’re talking about loyalty, what about Luki-san. He’s known her since they were kids. Long before we even knew Han-chan” –Mayu-chan

“True nga naman. Pero mas go ako kay Justin. Iniwan ni Luki si Han noon. At si Miguel binali wala lang si Han. At least Justin hindi naman iniwasan si Han kahit noon pa man. Siya ang nag stay sa side ni Han for two years din yun” –Arei

“Tama naman. Pero di ba nasaktan si Ellen dahil sa kanya? I mean, anong assurance natin na di niya iiwan si Han pag may nakitang iba? Kaya ako kay Miguel. Siya di niya iniwan si Han. Umalis lang si Han. Oo iniwasan niya pero dahil ayaw lang niya masira ang focus nila parehas sa studies diba? At least marunong mag prioritize” –Eli

“Alam ko ex ako ni Justin pero alam ko mabait naman yun. Mahal niya talaga si Crissy. No offense oo iniwasan ni Miguel si Crissy for studies pero parang kaduwagan lang. I mean, kung seryoso siya diba noon palang gagawin niya lahat. Matalino naman sila parehas, sige wag muna ligawan pero, para ipakita na parang baliwala lang si Crissy. Masakit yun. Mukhang naduduwag noon si Miguel. Pero, mas vote ako kay Luki. Alam kong iniwan niya si Crissy dahil akala niya sila na nila Justin noon. Mali nag assume siya pero tama naman na iuna ang kaligayahan ni Crissy. At least he did what he did to make Crissy happy. He always puts Crissy’s happiness first above anything else” –Len

“Ako… tingin ko wala. Lahat sila sinaktan at pinaasa si Han noon. Oo mahal nila ngayon pero ewan ko ba. Lahat naman sila mabait and all pero lahat may chance na saktan at iwan si Han” –Pia-nee

“Wow lang Pia noh? =____=” –Eli

“Hati hati naman opinion niyo oh… Hayy…”

 

Pero lahat sila may point…

 

“Han, just listen to your heart… it will know what’s right” –Lee

 

Tama nga naman sila pero… ewan ko talaga.

 

All of them always makes me happy pero hindi ko talaga matimbangan sino sa kanila.

 

“I don’t know”

“Han, sino ba nagpapasay sayo?” –Eli

“Lahat naman sila eh… I enjoy being with each of them”

“Siguro hindi issue sino ang kaya mo nakakasama pero… who can’t you leave without?” –Pai-nee

“Eh?”

“oo nga noh?” –Lee

“Han, you’ve experience loosing all of them at one point. Now, when they were gone, who did you miss most? Whom did you feel like you’re world stop moving and you were merely existing? Who can’t you live without by your side?” –Pia-nee

 

Who can’t I live without?

 

Sino nga ba?

 

Noong di na ako pinapansin ni Miguel parang I stop being I a part of his life. I felt so upset and angry. Iyak ako ng iyak noon…

 

Kaya noong dumating si Justin at sinabi na forget him and dare to fall in love again. It kinda hit me.

 

Why waste my tears on someone who ignores me and don’t appreciate me?

 

Ang dali ko lang siya nakalimutan. Lalo nung palitan na ni Justin siya sa puso ko.

 

Noong nalaman ko naman na mahal pala ni Justin si Len, it felt like my heart was rip. I didn’t want to hurt Len pero masakit makita sila mag kasama. Araw araw nakasama ko sila parehas ang sakit lang.

 

Nung nag decide ako iwan sila, ang bigat talaga ng pakiramdam ko. Sobra ko siya namiss. Yung feeling na I thought I’ve finally reach them then in reality I was being pushed further and further away. Ang sakit sakit lang talaga nun. Sobra ako nalungkot. It felt like I fell down and couldn’t stand up…

 

Pero someone help me get up…

 

And that was Luki-kun…

 

He did everything to keep me with him. To always be by my side and protect me.

 

Then he left… I couldn’t explain the pain I felt when he left me.

 

I thought I was gonna die. I relied on him so much. I felt like I couldn’t live without him by my side. I was like a walking zombie when he left me.

 

I felt my heart break and my world fell apart.

 

I felt bretrayed when he left.

 

My heart ached so much over the past two years. It was like all the water in bodied dried up from crying night after night.

 

Like… I couldn’t live with him with me…

 

“Han, uy” –Lee

“Alam mo na ba?” –Eli

“When Miguel was gone, all I could do was cry. Whe Justin was gone, I felt my heart was torn. But… whe Luki-kun left me. I couldn’t stand. I couldn’t eat. Couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t even cry even if I wanted to. It was like I wasn’t living, just existing. I can’t live without him…”

“So… the one you love is Luki?” –Pia-nee

“I don’t know… I was never able to answer that”

“Parang naman Crissy eh. I mean, hindi mo sinagot si Justin kahit alam naman namin na mahal mo siya. Tas pati si Miguel. Tas lalo ka sumigla noong dumating siya. Crissy, you were waiting for him. You always were. Sabi na mismo ni Luki na you can’t say you love either Justin or Miguel. Crissy, you should know deep inside you love Luki”

 

Si Luki-kun nga ba?