Hurting More Than Once//Jachary COMPLETED

Chapter 18: Confessions

JACK
We still had an hour until we released but it felt like a million years has gone by and we still haven't rehearsed. I guess being with Zach makes time slow down. He snuggled the blanket up to his face and fell asleep again. I chuckled at the sight of the small boy and I curled my lips into a smile. Light snores came from his mouth as his grip around my legs slightly tightened. I covered my self a little more with the blanket and tried to fall asleep but kept twitching every time I did. I was having nightmares. About Zach. About him cutting himself. And dying. It almost made me break down but I didn't because I knew, and he promised, that he wouldn't cut himself and he would still be here. I smiled at the thought and fell back asleep for the 4th time, trying to at least have a good dream.

ZACH
When are you going to tell him? You need to tell him. But it'll break his heart, I promised I wouldn't do it but my weak self let the hate get to me and I did it. Then tell him that. Except for the weak part. You aren't week. I can't. Not yet. Maybe after we finish this show and we are back at our rental house. Fine. But you're telling him because I will bug you until you do. Fine. I felt breaths blow against my neck and a shiver goes down my spine. Jack was asleep, and laying with me, and cuddling me, in front of the boys, what the heck. I don't think any of them noticed because Corbyn was still on his Nintendo Switch and Daniel and Jonah were cuddling on the other couch, looking at their phones. I still wanted to ask Daniel if he'll wear a jacket with me so we match and it's an excuse so cover my scars but I don't want to interrupt him and Jonah, and plus, Jack was still cuddling me, even though I had my back turned to him. With a slight sigh I broke from Jacks embrace and I saw him shudder with the loss of warmness. I walk over to Daniel and Jonah and ask Daniel if I could talk to him privately. He nods and gets up from the couch and breaking from Jonah's right embrace. We head into a different room and he sits in one of the chairs. "So what do you want to talk about?" He questioned. I didn't say anything and roll up my sleeves. His eyes go wide and his mouth hangs open as he lifts his head so his eyes meet mine. "Why?" He asks blankly. "This is already a conversation I had with Jack and I don't want to have it again because I feel like I'm going to break down if I explain." I respond. "Wait, this has happened before?" He says shocked. "I didn't tell you the last time I did it before this time. I talked to Jack about it but I told him it wouldn't happen anymore. And I just got so fed up because I was thinking of my dad and I didn't want to shed any tears and it just, happened. I'm not going to tell Jack yet because I feel like he's not going to be in a good mood and then I'll be even more sad-" I get cut off as Daniel pulls me into a comforting hug. Tears fell from eyes and onto his shoulder. "You don't have to explain. We'll wear something similar, like a jacket or sweatshirt." He whispers slightly. I smile and wipe my tears as he lets go of me. "Just tell him soon. It'll bug you and better to tell him sooner rather than later." He hummed. I nod and open the door and leave the room, Daniel following slowly behind me. I head over back to the couch and slip under the blanket again. The moment I lay down, Jack slips his hand on my waist and pulls me closer to him. I turn over with a roll of my eyes and see Jack looking up at me. "Where did you go?" He says groggily. "Just to talk to Daniel." I respond. He nods and falls asleep again. You're telling him after you get home. Since you guys share a room it'll be easy without being interrupted. And, I'm proud that you told Daniel. He now has a sense to protect you more but Jack will be even more protective after you tell him. I know. I just hope he won't get mad. Trust me, he will never, EVER, be mad at you. He loves you too much. And of course, in a brotherly way. My eyes drift close as that last thought came into my head.
And that's all it'll ever be.