I woke up early in the morning and offered Fajjar.
Let me get you straight I'm not punctual in Namaz.I don't know but that regularity I never achieved.
Is it me or my abnormal life I don't know.But I came to know that I offer prayer when I want to seek peace and once I get it, I stop praying.
I know its bad,Ofcourse I know but that pathetic I am.
I always thought of becoming punctual but my light again fades and mingles with darkness
There's darkness still inside me and I don't know I will ever get rid of it because it is a part of my soul.
You could protect yourself from others but how could you protect yourself from you.
What If danger lies inside you!!
I haven't found a way to conquer my that part.
My faith is still uncomplete.And I knew it but I haven't find my light not yet.
I don't know a part of me still wants to just mess in darkness and wrongness and dwell in nothingness.
A part of me is too stubborn to walk on right path.
So fajjar prayer soothes my depressions and uncurls my tightened curves.
It releases my stiffening muscles and smoothens my arching spine.
I think at that time connection between you and Allah is really strong because you're unbounded to the bounds of world and its inhabitants.
After that I recited Surah Yaseen.
It is the "Heart Of Quran"
I think it is because it captures the whole sea in few words.
The basics of Imaan are encarved in it.I really feel my heartbeat with every single word.Yes, I feel the sensation tingling from my finger placed on Quran towards my whole body consuming my heart.
I swear it is that intense.
You know where goosebumps arose when It states:
"Did I not ordain for you, O Children of Adam, that you should not worship Shaitan (Satan). Verily, he is a plain enemy to you."
When it stripped the volatility and insanity of human being
"Does not man see that We have created him from Nutfah (mixed male and female discharge semen drops). Yet behold! He (stands forth) as an open opponent."
And then there is ungratefulness and selfishness of man embedded in his body and soul......
"Do they not see that We have created for them of what Our Hands have created, the cattle, so that they are their owners."
I don't know why people are so full of themselves thinking nothing could turn their single hair wrong.
I mean why we are so big of idiots!!!!
Why we are even sinners!!!!!
Why don't we get the things beyond the surface!!!!
Why we are so apparent and shallow!!!!
Why we break so easily!!!!
Why we gloat and condescend so easily!!!
Why we can't be modest!!!!
Why we can't be what we are!!!
Simple creatures from mud!!
Why we are so presumptuous!!
Because we are humans.Yes merely humans.
Who had agile and compulsive nature.Who are evanescent and thick-headed.
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