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T H R E E:A dream

I walked around campus ground to what others may seem aimlessly,but I was looking for gramps.A somewhat cold breeze wrapped around me and I welcomed it gladly,stopping my search and closed my eyes to enjoy it.It felt so nice and welcoming,like a hug from an old friend.I really like this weather and this time of the year.It 's cold,but not too cold-cold enough.This period of time is also the start of the holiday traffic,as I call it.Halloween then the holidays then new years eve and the sudden stress.Despite the stress and anxiety following the holiday traffic,I still love this time of the year.The breeze also brought the smell of 'pre-rain' and dirt,signaling that it was going to rain soon.Something poked my shoulders and my eyes snapped open in alarm.My body turned around and backed away on its own accord."Uh hi to you too?"Phil said sheepishly."Jesus Christ,Phil you really shouldn't sneak up on people like that,"I lectured.I know that my cheeks were tinted with a hint of red,since I could feel heat on my cheeks.I admit I overreacted a  bit,which is kind of embarrassing."Sorry,didn't mean to scare you.You just looked really peaceful and I didn't want to,um,disturb you too much.Clearly failed,"he chuckled nervously,clearly as embarrassed."I just like the breeze.It feels so nice against your skin and it makes you think,"I said."Hmm,think about what?"he queried."Many things,Phil.The wind is so free and uncontrolled and it has been on this Earth for ages.It has traveled countries and gone to places where no human had,it also knows more than any human does-metaphorically.The wind saved lives and took lives.It sent messages and helped us in ways we can't comprehend.Us,humans,no matter how much we evolve and gain knowledge,we won't ever even scratch the surface of the amount of knowledge the wind has or rather would have had,since it isn't a sentient being and all,"I rambled,momentarily forgetting that there was an audience (Phil)."Woah..guess you're right,it does make you think...That was amazing.Wasn't aware I had a philosopher for a friend,"Phil  praised,smiling.I arched an eyebrow,questionably."You..don't think it's annoying?Or that I sound like a smartass?"I voiced my thoughts to Phil,and that's weird.I usually don't do that much,but Phil has this aura around him;it makes him easy to talk to."Not at all,I think it's impressive and it allows you to show people that you aren't one-dimensional you know?Makes you interesting,and that's what we all strive for,socially.So,no,it's not annoying and you're not a smartass.You're just too interesting for some people,"Phil grinned.Heat flooded my cheeks as I felt a blush invade my features.I hope it wasn't as intense as it felt."Didn't know I  had a philosopher for a friend,"I laughed,nudging him.We were both smiling as we walked faster towards  Jour de pluie to meet PJ and shelter ourselves from the rain.When did it even start to rain?

We were welcomed with the sweet aroma of freshly ground coffee beans as we walked through Jour de Pluie's doors.This has been a tradition for the two weeks I've known Phil and PJ for.Finish classes,come to Jour de Pluie,have a drink,then hang out until we need to part ways.It was a sort of routine more than it a tradition.Phil and I have been talking a lot around campus,in classes we share,and in Jour de Pluie because despite it feeling like ages since I've known Phil,I still don't really feel fully comfortable.I hate that,because Phil seems so open and comfortable and..radiant,and I am not.I am timid,and it takes time for me to actually trust people and be fully comfortable around them.For once since I met Phil,I wish I hadn't met him,or rather i wish he was less....sunshine-y."Earth to Danny?"PJ hit my forehead,lightly.I shooed him off,"What?"PJ and Phil looked at each other for a moment,then Phil said,"We were wondering if you'd like to help us make our next drink masterpiece?"Phil was excited to hear my answer,but I can't say yes..I just can't.Me coming with Phil here when we first met was a miracle in itself.I sighed and looked down at my feet,as if it'll make it any easier to reject their offer-Phil's offer."I--am sorry.I can't go..um a bit busy.I've got a really big astrophysics essay to finish,I'm really sorry,"I apologized.First mistake of the day was looking back up again.PJ shrugged,"Don't worry about it too much,next time I guess."Phil looked at me and I felt the disappointment radiate off of him.I sighed and looked away,but as I did,I felt a hand pat my back."Oh don't sweat it,kiddo.We'll postpone it a week more for you to be with us!"burst Phil."Right,PJ?"he added,looking expectantly at the curly-haired drink expert."But--"PJ didn't even continue before Phil elbowed him harshly."Right,PJ?Phil repeated."Right!!!"PJ exclaimed,half in pain.Phil then turned around and smiled brightly at me,encouraging me to agree.I felt really guilt for taking them away from what they enjoy and making the postpone it for me but I smiled,nonetheless."Well,okay.No promises,though.And don't call me Danny,"I pretended to be serious at the last part.PJ just looked at me in a challenging way.I feel a little more comfortable.

I attentively watched my legs come and go through my sight as I walked to the bus stop.Phil asked to drive me off,but I kindle refused.I actually don't know why in the world I refused,yet I did so anyway;with no reason whatsoever.It would've been easier to ride with Phil,but even with the temptation of the offer,I refused.I sighed as Audy settled in my head.She does that alot,it's how she hugs me.An amazing form of comfort is what it is,honestly Audra is the best.

BAM

I rubbed my forehead in pain.Like the idiot I am,I got so lost in thought and distracted that I accidentally hit my head on the advert board beside the bus stop's chair.Blinking a few time to make sure my eyes are working properly,I look at the advert.It was a perfume advert with a pale,handsome man with blue,striking eyes  and a prominent adam's apple .He reminded me a lot of..Phil.His name and the model's resemblance made another thought surface.Why did I care so much about Phil's disappointment?Don't get me wrong,I'm a generally nice person and I care-sometimes too much.Not only have I known Phil for less than a month,but also well..I've known Phil for less than a month.I would care,but not to the extent of betraying my sweet,sweet comfort zone.It's all too weird.Sighing,I go to take a seat on the vacant bus stop bench.I am thankful for him,though.He made me avoid the whole 'taking-to-new-people-myself-and-getting-to-know-them',Phil did it for me.Audy nestled in my hair further,"you lazy,lazy oaf,"I smiled at her.The bus came to a halt and I heard the familiar brakes screech as I went in.

I tiptoed into my dorm,careful to not wake up my roommate or,god forbid,make him mistake me for an intruder.Chris can be a little cranky when disturbed while sleep.I sighed in relief,when I finally made it to my bed.PJ,Phil,and I ended up spending all day at the coffee shop;we were just chatting and enjoying each others company.I kicked off my shoes and took off my pants,then took off my black,no-face sweater and replaced it with a comfortable,black hoodie.After being comfortable,I closed my eyes and let today's happy events lull me to sleep.

 I walked on the beach,feeling the cool sand between my bare toes.The waves were weak,barely touching my dry ankles.The sky was an artist's work,a mixture of pink,orange and blue shades that please the eye.The breeze was whispering its knowledge to me and to those who stopped and listened hard enough to hear what it has to say.It was peacefully pleasing,making my heart feel at peace."What do you wish to know,young listener?"the wind whispered to me."I wish to know about happiness,love,and about those clouds,"I answered,pointing to the cutos clouds floating nearby."Is that so?Why do they intrigue you,young listener?And what proves you worthy of my knowledge?What benefit shall I gain from telling you,a feeble human,of my secrets?"questioned the wind."They intrigue me because of how we,humans,use them.Some things or actions,to me,may seem as a waste of time and a waste of my short-lived life but to someone else they might be they purpose to their lives.And it confuses me how our cloud guardians only seek for us,do they not have dreams or are they as simple as we see?We,humans,know nothing of the world we live in.We barely understand it,because we move too fast that we don't stop to listen and recognize that the answer to all our questions may be right in our hands.You may not gain anything from answering me or you may,but it depends on you really.That's how it works,you give out of generosity or out of benefit.It's to you to decide whether I am worthy or not,but for me?No one is actually worthy of what they ask,for they ask for it instead of gaining it,"I finally finished,taking a deep breath and letting the wind go through my hair.The wind blew harder,in interest of what it had heard."What a curious human you are,"it stopped talking for a moment,the added," Your answers come to you and more when you learn the language of the quiet."The wind howled loudly,and I had to cover my ears from the greatness of the sound."In time,"the wind screamed.I looked up in time to be greeted by a giant wave that engulfed my body,choking me.I opened my eyes to not the sea,but millions of stars and a constellation resembling a mighty lion."In time,"the lion roared,shaking my insides.I couldn't breathe.

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hello hello

hope you enjoyed reading this as much as i enjoyed writing it

the dream part was a bit experimental but really fun

filler chapter coming soon 

side note:I post chapters on fridays according to my timimg so i'm sorry if it's different where you are 

idk how to coordinate things

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