I CAN'T BREATHE.
Drowning,I felt like I was drowning.My lungs were failing me and I was thrashing around in bed,half awake and half drowning in my dreams.The feeling of extreme panic settled in my guts,and I completely opened my mouth to let the water(in my dream(nightmare)) finally enter my respiratory system.The cheaply furnished dorm came and went into and out of my blurry vision until it stopped on reality.I woke up startled and unable to breathe and coughing violently.Inhale,inhale.My body isn't agreeing and I started to realize that I can't inhale for some reason.I could taste the sickly taste of iron in the back of my mouth.I jerked upward and let the blood fall on my sweatpants and wooden,waxed yet squeaky old floor as I ran to the small bathroom.I coughed above the sink,watching blood come out of my nose and drip into the sink.My forehead was drenched in cold sweat and my shirt was sticking to my body as if it's trying to save me.Frantically and breathlessly,I started washing out my nose.Just as my nerves were calming,I realized that Audy was screaming back beside my bed.Shit,how didn't I hear her?I assume that in panic and need of breathe;I blocked out everything else,including a screaming Audra and a panic-stricken and angry Chris.Using some toilet paper to temporarily stop the blood,I rushed back to my bed."Dan,what the fuck?!"Chris shouted,concerned as he looked at the situation-screaming Audy and blood and all."I'm---fine.Just fell off,Audy overreacts.Sorry I woke you up,"I calmly apologized.My heart was racing,my hands were shaking,and my vision was fading.I was so dizzy from everything and panicked too but I decided to stay calm and not worry Chris."Fine my arse,"Chris fumed.That's how good old Chris shows concern;through anger.He kept cursing and mumbling under his breath as he went to turn on the lights.Bright,white lights blinded my vision and made me close my eyes in pain.Slowly,I opened my eyes.I couldn't help but let my jaw open in shock.Blood,it was everywhere.My pillow was almost soaked and my black bed covers were somehow even blacker and obviously sticky with my own blood.Chris' expression mirrored mine-just a bit more severe.A lot more severe,it looked like his jaw was going to fall off."I'm fine?!Dan,what in the everloving fuck?!?How could you bleed all that from your fucking nose?!It looks like you murdered someone not fell off your stupid motherfucking bed!"Chris fretted."I get severe nosebleeds because of the weather,sensitive nose.And I fell too,so it's in pretty bad shape,"I assured him.He wasn't fully convinced but his frown eased a little."Listen,mate.I'm sorry I lost it like that but you can't blame me,eh?I woke up to a screaming custos and a bleeding idiot,of course I'd panic and lose my crap,"he said,now calmer with an apologetic smile replacing the frown."Yeah,sorry about that,"I smile and walk over to the shaking cloud."Shhh.."I pet her slowly,"I'm okay,I just want some gum,can you help me with that?"Audra feels better when I ask her for things;as I said she's the best.She started to calm down,making myself calm down too.I felt her shake around and drop a heap of colorful,probably differently flavoured gumballs."Good girl,"Chris hums,stealing Audy away.He loves Audy like his own custos,or rather like he did.Chris' custos died a while back;no one but Chris knows why.He refuses to speak about it,really."Take care of the idiot for the night,yes?"Chris cooed.Audy floated into his head and nestled him."Aw,thanks.I like you too,girl,"he smiled.Audra left his head and nestled in mine instead."Lazy oaf,"Chris and I whispered in sync.She only shook herself on my head,pretending to be upset."Well,I'll go get you some covers and some bandaid to press down on your nose,it's looking like shit,"he waved,leaving the room.
The best thing about section C of the dorms is that we are on the furthest side of building 1 so we get balconies because we have extra space.The sky looked so nice and soothing to anyone but me.To me,it was an ignition.It ignited memories.hopes and dreams in me.Tonight,though,it was a harsh reminder of the nightmare that I just had an hour ago.I took a deep breathe and laid my head on Audy;she started to sing.Custos don't really sing like us,with words.They use their life force to sing into their owner's heart,a form of comfort.Her song sounded beautiful,felt beautiful too.The soft,caring melody reminded me of a mother whale singing to her scared calves,lulling them to sleep.I closed my eyes and let the song comfort me.I opened my eyes and looked back up at the sky,"Listen..I know we don't talk as much as we used to but if you gave me that dream,then that wasn't cool at all."It may seem weird,that I talk to the sky-to the stars,but I feel an attraction to it,starting from my very core and going up to my features.Like..it answers back in it's own language;a language that no one bothers to stand still enough to listen to.I feel at ease talking to the sky,I also feel like I can understand its ancient,sacred language."Don't play all mysterious with me,"I huffed into Audy's fluffiness."I just didn't like it okay?I panicked pretty bad.I mean try waking up after a nightmare to see that your nose is dying and you can't breath,let's see how it works for you,"I mumbled.The sky went quiet for a second but then talked again."yeah..yeah I know,"I whispered.I sighed and listened as the sky recited something for me:
Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
"Woah,"I stood up straight in awe.The words were so beautiful and so clear.The sky never talked this clear to me,let alone recite my favorite poetry.I couldn't help but smile and be thankful.Out of the billions of people out there,the skies chose to talk to me and comfort me when troubled."Well,I'll think about forgiving you,"I laughed."I'm thankful,"I smiled in gratitude,feeling slightly better.Audy and I went in and I looked at the fresh,navy blue sheets."Thankful got Chris too,"I whispered to myself.I let myself fall into the clean bed.I felt better and I had clean sheets done for me,yet I still couldn't sleep.Something was on my mind,and I don't think it's necessarily bad;considering the night's events.
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I always count my breathes when I'm anxious or in though.Counting,to me,is a weirdly therapeutic habit.Test in the next hour?Count.Confessing to your stupid teenage crush whose name you won't ever remember?Count.Listening to everyone brag about their progress while you don't?Don't cry,count.I think if it's up to me,I'd throw out all the stress balls and other 'stress-relief' concoctions out and replace them with counting."Hey,Audy?Do you think counting can give us world peace?"I whispered to her.All I got for a response was a whistle-sounding snore."Yeah,"I smiled.As I pet her petite form,a name crossed my mind.
Phil
Before I could think of why I even thought of him,I snatched my phone off of the small nightstand.The brightness of the screen hurt my eyes so I lowered it and clicked on the small envelope icon.I debated texting him at almost dawn but eventually I gave up and did so:
D-SLICE:hey Phil
GRAMPS:hey kiddo,what you doing up.Isn't it past your bedtime?
D-SLICE:can't sleep,mind if we talk a bit
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