I didn't go to school or leave the house until Friday. We had two more weeks of school until summer vacation and I was prepared for anything.
I thought a lot, I didn't care if love was going to be painful or not, it always will. Rejection will happen, everything will happen. That's why, I plan on asking Jay Blue's dad permission to take his daughter out.
I planned we go to the train tracks and have a nice picnic underneath the stars. Cheesy, I know but I want to see Jay Blue again.
I talked to the lads at school about it and they kept teasing me. After school, they all wished my good luck but I was still nervous. I told my dad I would be home until a little bit before
midnight. He didn't seem to care anyways.Now that everything was taken care of, I was ready to walk to that house. I had my black t-shirt on and some pants. I quickly fixed my hair for the thousandth time and took a deep breath before walking out of the house.
I said goodbye to dad and walked to the McLean's. The sun was setting early but I hoped Jay Blue's dad would let me take her out. I knocked on their door and it opened with Ana staring at me.
"Hi, may I come in?" She nodded opening it and I walked in. I felt a tight squeeze in my stomach as I looked around. The house seemed silent but Ana soon spoke.
"Are you here about Jay?"
"Yes, but I wanted to speak to your father. Where is Jay?" I said leaving out Blue.
"You don't know, do you?"
"Don't know what?" I asked. The feeling in my stomach grew as I waited for the answer.
"She's gone son." A voice answer which belonged to her father. What? No she can't be gone!
"What?" I asked focused.
"She, she ran away. Monday actually, she just took off. I believe, she, she took something with her but I don't know what. All I know is that she's gone!" He cried out and the rest of the girls came out. I felt like a fool for coming over; why did she leave?
"I'm so sorry, ' I said quietly and walked myself out of the house. The step I took outside was when I felt the tears escape my eyes. I've cried so much this week, I feel so stupid. Boys aren't suppose to cry, they're suppose to take care of the family and lead as the tough guy. Why can't I be like that?
I could've for Jay Blue. Now, I don't know where the hell she is.
I crossed the street to my home but the wind howled, strange. I heard a faint calling from someone, I thought i was just losing it. I looked both ways down the street and no one was around, leaving me terribly confused.
"Luke." I looked everywhere the find the person saying my name. my legs starting walking down the street and I had no idea where i was going. I walked past the school and found the train tracks, where I was earlier this week. I shook my head at the memory.
I focused and I heard my name being called again. What the bloody hell?!
I felt the air escape from my lungs as I saw Jay Blue lying on the tracks. she had her white night gown on and I ran to her.
"Jay Blue?" I crouched beside her and picked her head up. I pulled her closer to me and I started to have a horrible pain in my stomach.
No, she can't be. No.
"Jay Blue, stay with me! You're all I need," I cried out pulled her head to my chest. I was crying so much, my stomach felt like someone stabbed me.
"Stay with me baby. Wake up. Wake up, you have a life. You have me, stay with me. " I stayed there for a long time waiting for her to wake up. I admired her face and how precious it was. She was so beautiful, she doesn't deserve this.
I stood up and I carried her in my arms back into the town. I cried as every step carried her to the hospital. I felt so much pain in my chest, I just need her to wake up.
I made it to the hospital, ignoring my tired body as I shouted for help in the ER. Nurses came by with a bed and I gently placed her on it. They pushed her into some room and i immediately followed, but the nurse stopped me and asked me questions about her.
"I just want to be with her!" I cried out, the nurse sighed and asked me to fill out a form in the waiting room. I took a deep breath and nodded. there wasn't a second where a tear wouldn't come down my face.
I waited in the room for what felt for eternity. I was so anxious to see her, to hold her again. I need to, Id lose it.
"Luke?" I looked up to see Jay Blue's father. Her sisters and mother took a seat as they anxiously waited too.
"Hi," I croaked out.
"Thank you." Was all he said before taking a seat with the rest. I felt I haven't done anything but wait for the nurse or doctor to announce weather she'd dead or alive. I'll still love her anyway, she just had to know I love her.
"Is Jay mcClean's parents here?" A doctor asked the people in the waiting room. I looked to them and they stood with worried looks on their face.
"She's awake," was what I heard come from the Doctor's mouth. I instantly stood at this sentence. their eyes were glued on me as I walked over to them.
"She's alive?" I asked.
"Yes. She blacked out most likely. We can't determined why she didn't wake up or say anything." The Doctor explained. He talked so smoothly, like he said the same thing every damn day.
"Can we see her?" Jay Blue;s mother asked.
"Yes, but careful." we followed him to her room and i gasped. She wore a snugged smile when we locked eyes.
"darling." Her mother embraced her along with her father. her sisters came in and I waited outside the door, not wanting to disturb their moment. After a while they left, saying they'd come tomorrow. I said goodbye and walked in, closing the door behind me.
"Thank you." I heard her say as i sat down in the chair beside her. My eyes ached from so much crying and I wanted was to sleep, but talking and seeing Jay Blue made me forget the pain.
"Jay Blue, I need you to know something," I needed to tell her. I grabbed her hand and linked it with mine. "When I saw you there on the tracks, my stomach did this weird flop. It hurt so much. i held you in my arms, crying because I thought that would be the last time I held you. i don't want to lose you Jay Blue. I love you." I kissed her hand before looking up at her. I stood up and cupped her face with my hands.
"Can I kiss you?" She silently nodded her head and smiled. I leaned in, feeling her soft lips again. the same soft lips that belong to the only person I could possibly never let go. Our kiss was filled with so much emotion, you could feel the energy in the air. My hands were on the side of her on the bed as we kissed.
in that moment, i felt we weren't in a hospital. i felt were were floating in mid air hanging on to one another for life. I know I sound selfish, but losing her would just tear me apart. i've lost many memories and people this week. I'm lucky i saved Jay Blue.
We don't get to choose who leaves us. We get to choose who we save and love.

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Night || Luke Hemmings
FanfictionShe would look at the stars night by night. Gazing at them like she was at a museum. Now she is one of those stars. [In the process of editing - 2017]