Lone survivor {completed}

Chapter 9

May's Pov
I wiped a single tear that slipped from my cheek as I ran farther and farther from Cassy. Not looking back once I turned a corner, there was even more biters on that side forcing me to run into the closest building. Everything was still, everything was silent inside the remains of the building. I stumbled up the steps my head spinning, my heart pounding. "Stay safe, stay alive" I said thinking of my last words to my sister. I had abandoned her once, now here I am leaving her once again. "I'm so sorry" I said as I reached the next floor, I walked into a room closing the door. I slid down the wooden door, thumping onto the ground; I looked at my arm the blood slowly oozing down my arm.
"Jesus" I said looking away, I thought of the others closing my eyes. "Goodbye guys" I said my own voice fading from my ears. The banging on the door behind me falling silent, I stood up walking to the window gazing out at the crumbling city around me. The door bust open and I turned as the biters poured in like a flood. "I love you" I said closing my eyes imagining the future I would no longer be in, imagining my sister and I talking all night, imagining Cody and me the month we were gone away looking for his brother. "I love you" I repeated "I love you".....
Cassy's Pov
I've had a piece of me missing for so long, and for once I felt almost complete.. almost. I knew I would never be complete knowing that I couldn't save Bex, I couldn't save May. I can change that, I can make things right with Cody. I looked over at him "with Zach" I glanced his way as well "all of them" I closed my eyes. "Tomorrow we head for the hotel" Emily stated as we all stood together "tomorrow our new beginning begins" she continued. We stood there as the sun etched slowly out of the sky, "together" I whispered and Zach looked at me for the first time since we left. "Together" he repeated and I smiled "brings back memory's huh" he continued in return I sent him a puzzled glance then it hit me.
"From the first time we met" I smiled at him "when you practically chased me onto the roof" I laughed slightly holding my side. "And here we are again, heh who would've thought" I looked at my feet. "I'll take first watch" I said after we all stood there side by side for who knows how long, no one wanting to break the silence. "You should get some sleep" Matthew looked at me shaking his head "I'll take first watch" he continued grabbing his gun no one protested. I wanted to say something, anything to get him to let me take watch but no words came out.
        I silently walked to the edge farthest from the others and took a seat, swinging my legs over and gazing at the night. Everyone settled into a place to try and sleep, though I doubted any of us would. Matthew plopped down beside me "I thought you were going to get some sleep"? He said not looking at me. "Yeah right and let you have all the fun" I forced a smile which he returned just as forced. I still had Gracie in my arms, "you think she's hungry"? I asked him "I mean who knows how long she was in there" I continued standing up. "Where are you going"? He asked as I handed him the too restless child.
      "I'm not gonna go far" I told him quietly to not let the others know "I got a knife" I insisted. "There's no way I'm letting you go alone" he persisted "there's no way I'm letting you stop me... I already caused one person to die I'm not letting Gracie starve" I said knowing I wouldn't take no for an answer. He shoved his gun into my hands "fine.. but your not going with only a knife" he said obviously not wanting my to go "thank you" I said as I turned. I quietly walked to the door across to the roof, I opened it slowly squeezing through the gap into the darkness.
     I clicked the flashlight on, the bright beam piercing the shadows. I shone it around the building seeing no signs of life.. or death. I walked down the hall to a flight of stairs, my feet clanked on the metal stairs as I descended, I scanned the area one last time before ducking into a room. It looked like a storage room of sorts, there were cardboard boxes stacked on every shelf and tossed around the floor. I dug through them until I found a box of apple sauce "babies probably like apple sauce" I said to myself grabbing it I left. I walked down the hallway alone. The real weight of what had happened pushed down on me, feeling like a ton of bricks.
           "She's really gone" I said to myself, I've tried to be strong for the others, and though I haven't done to well with that; the feeling of being alone made everything so much more real. I leaned against the wall, pulling out the note I still kept with me, a drop of water fell to it smearing the ink. I wiped my eye "I love you too" I said remembering the last thing she said to me, right before she ran leading some of the biters away, giving us more of a chance. The person I was is broken, broken beyond repair. The person I need to be, the one who's strong, the one who protects those she cares about, however is just being put together.
       "Cassy"? A voice asked behind me, I turned to see Zach standing behind me. "Oh hey" I smiled weakly "I was just getting something for Gracie to eat" I lifted the apple sauce to show him. "Uh that's nice.. I just wanted to, I don't know, see if you, if you'd want" he paused taking a breath "are you okay"? He finally asked blushing slightly with embarrassment. "Yeah sure lets go with that" I shrugged, "am I ever okay" I joked, he put a hand on my shoulder. He pulled me to face him "you just lost someone" he said sympathetically "we all lost someone" I corrected.
"Do y'all need a room" Carly interrupted from behind us startling me. "What, we just, we were just talking" Zach blushed, "what's up" I shook my head jokingly. "Matthew said you went down here, we couldn't find Zach so we figured he was here too" She looked back just as the others came in, Emily carrying Gracie looking like the mother figure she acts like. "Hey" I smiled walking over to Emily and Gracie "you want some apple sauce"? I spoke in a baby voice. I sat down on an old chair, setting Gracie on my lap. Struggling I ripped open the box of apple sauce "let me help you" Carly started to offer. "I got it" I grumbled trying to open the container of apple sauce. Carly bent down and gently took it from my hands, giving me a gentle smile she opened it and handed it back.
        "Thanks" I forced a smile trying to give a genuine look of thanks. I put it to her lips and thankfully she ate some. "I think she likes you" Carly told me happily "maybe we should go back up to the rooftop" she added shortly after. Once back on the rooftop I could see the sun slowly rising "how long was I down there"? I asked myself aloud. "Too long" Matthew started "I was worried, but" he paused. I stopped and looked at him "but"? I questioned "but no matter how many times u deny it to us, to yourself, your hurting" he stopped looking around to see if the others were listening.
        "I had a sister" he started sadly "now I don't, one of the reasons I didn't want you tagging along is because of that" he took a shaky breath. I've never seen him like this "we had another member of our little group, I trusted him; but I'm the end he ended up being the one to kill my sister, I didn't trust you because" he stopped "you didn't want to lose anyone else" I finished and he nodded, without thinking I wrapped one arm around him, Gracie in the other. Tears staining both of our cheeks we stood there "we aren't going to lose anyone else" I told him as we pulled apart. "You don't have to say anymore, when your ready and you want to talk about what happened... I'm here. I gave him a weak smile which he weakly returned, I turned to see Zach glaring in our direction.
            What's his problem? I asked myself as Gracie slept quietly in my arms. "Tomorrow we're heading out again for the hotel" Emily said standing beside me. "I-if your ready for that" she quickly added "I'm fine" I nodded trying to sound in a stable state of mind. Which honestly I don't think I've been stable in a very long time, is anyone though? I wondered almost forgetting Emily beside me. "Cassy"? She asked drawing my attention to her again. "I'm fine" I persuaded she smiled sympathetically pulling out the map."Okay" she announced just loud enough for the others to hear.
           We all gathered around her, "I think we're about here" she stared pointing to a place on the map. "We have three blocks to go" I mumbled "just three blocks" Carly repeated excitedly. "Just three blocks of death and pain and destruction" Zach mumbled. Gracie turned over in my arms, starting to cry. "Hey hey it's okay" I spoke calmly as I rocked her, banging on the other roof door caught my attention. "Shut her up" Cody whispered harshly "in trying" i retaliated with venom in my voice. The banging got louder with Gracie's cries; Emily jogged over to the glass window in the roof door.
        "It's a person" she gasp opening the door, the girl who was banging on the door collapsed to the ground. Matthew immediately drew his gun and aimed it at her "close the door" she hollered jumping up. I looked to see two people bolting towards it, a bloody knife in hand. Emily tried to close the door but they shoved it back. I'm the struggle to keep it closed one of the men swiped at Emily with a knife, nearly cutting her stomach. I handed Gracie to Carly who was beside me petrified, I pulled out my gun walked over to the door and bam. The one who still was trying to stab at Emily fell to the ground. The other ran off, I stared at the lifeless body in the hall.
            "Cassy"? Emily put a hand over her mouth in shock, "who are you"? I asked pointing my gun now at the girl. She looked from me to the others, the hair fell out of her face and I nearly collapsed "May"?