Dealing with Depression- SoarinDash

Taking Extreme Measures

-Rainbow Dash POV-

After the torture of standing still for an hour so Rarity could take my measurements, Soarin walked me home. “Thanks Soarin.”

“No problem. Won't want my princess to get hurt.”

“Can I, help you with anything?”

“Eat your dinner.”

I froze and looked at him seeing that he was sirius so I sighed. There was only one way to handle this. “Fine.”

He smiled grabbed my hand then placed a small kiss on it. I felt my checks heat slightly. Nope! Your Rainbow Dash. Besides, it won't matter in 100 years anyway. Nothing I do will. So what's the point in doing anything?

“See you tomorrow?” he asked hope in his eyes. Why does he care so much?

“Y- yeah. See ya.” he smiled and walked to his house.

I stood there for a good while till I finally went inside. “I'm home!”

Mom looked out of the kitchen. “Hey Dashie. Practice go over today?”

“I… took the long way home. If you don't mind I'm just gonna eat and go to bed.”

“Of course. It's on the table.”

I walked in and looked at the food. It had half a piece of lasagna and a quarter serving of baby carrots. I cringed at how much it was. But I promised Soarin so I sat down and grudgingly ate.

When it was mostly empty, well, empty enough for me to get away with it, I ran upstairs to my room, locked the door, and went straight to the bathroom. There, I through it all up. Nothing but stomach acid was there now.

I made sure that was the case then I got my red cloth and pocket knife. The silver blade drew red designs all over my arms. And for the first time, I drew words. Each describing myself.

Ugly

Fat

Friendless

Weak

Helpless

Nobody

For some reason, the designs didn't hurt as much as before, so I just did more words underlining each one. Lots of people would say I didn't deserve this but I knew they were wrong. I was doing myself justice. Saying I'm sorry that I was born by punishing myself and doing so every day.

Nothing anyone will say can convince me otherwise for I already convinced myself of it. Nobody. Nobody at all.

Hey Guys. It's Rainbow. Here with another chapter. As for all of you who posted they're predictions, I did get back to you unless for some reason I didn't get a notification. You can always post your predictions but I won't give any spoilers so don't try.

Hope you liked the chapter and always wear your seat belt.