starstruck ♡ changlix (slow updates)

seven ✧

♡ tw - anxiety ♡

   felix couldn't sleep. he was scared. he was up for a good half hour trying to sleep before sitting up in his bed, anxiety filling him quickly. changbin had said goodnight to him, obviously not going to be with felix as they went to bed, & felix was a bit sad about it. they were dating now, after all, but the others didn't know yet, so maybe that's why changbin didn't want to.

   felix took a shaky breath, looking around his shared room with seungmin & jisung. all of the others were asleep, felix assumed, so he didn't know what to do. he sat in bed, mind-wrenching thoughts filling his head as he tried to calm himself down, which he just couldn't seem to do. felix didn't like the dark very much either, so this was not going well for him.

   not being able to take it anymore, felix gulped, a lump forming in his throat as he tiptoed out of his bed & into changbin & chan's room. felix quietly rushed over to changbin's bed, lightly shaking him the first time. seeing he didn't wake up, felix whimpered slightly, feeling tears form in his eyes.

   "b-binnie hyung," felix whispered, shaking changbin a bit harder this time. with a slight jolt, changbin woke up, fear automatically filling his body as he saw tears rushing down his boy's face.

   "felix, sweetie, what's wrong?" changbin sat up quickly, grabbing felix's hands as he sat him on the bed. felix was now a mess, sobbing quietly as the older pulled him into his lap. changbin held felix close to his chest as he felt small droplets of water cover his shirt. "baby, shh, it's okay, what's wrong? what happened?" changbin said softly, trying to calm the younger as his tears slowed down.

   "i-i couldn't s-sleep, a-and i-i m-missed you & t-thought y-you didn't wanna lay w-with m-me, & m-my anxiety got b-bad," felix choked out, clinging on even tighter to his boyfriend, if that were possible. changbin felt his heart ache as he heard what felix was saying.

   "lix, listen to me; that is not why i didn't lay with you. i wasn't sure if you were comfortable with that yet or not, so i just wanted to be safe, but i guess it wasn't so safe, oh, baby, i'm so sorry." changbin kissed the top of felix's head, holding him in his arms. "i-it's okay, it's my f-fault," felix pouted, shaking his head sadly.

   "no, no love, it is not your fault. your anxiety is never, & will never be your fault. i am here for you always, no matter what. don't you ever be afraid to come to me, okay my love?" changbin held felix's face in his hands gently. felix nodded in return, giving his boyfriend a big hug right away. changbin smiled, wiping felix's tears away with his thumb.

   the two laid down, changbin's arms still around felix as felix cuddled into his chest. changbin sighed, staring at the younger boy in his arms. say it, changbin. you can do it. he's your boyfriend now. yours. you can tell him you love him. "felix..." changbin spoke hesitantly. "y-yes, binnie hyung?" felix sniffled, craning his head upwards. "i..."

   as the two made eye contact, changbin felt his cheeks heat up. felix was just so precious. oh god, this boy is going to be the death of me.

   "i...i'll talk to you in the morning, alright? get some sleep, sweetie." changbin placed multiple kisses upon felix's forehead, hearing a quick "goodnight, hyung," before he closed his eyes, hoping for felix to be happy & okay.

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hiii~!
so here's chapter 7! i apologize for my chapters not being as long as i would like them to, i guess i'm just not good at long chapters, oops
sorry for not updating on my updating days!! i'm actually not sure if the days i said are going to be my updating days, for now i'm kinda just writing & posting whenever i have free time & inspiration
buuuuut yeah, i'll have a lot more free time now, so i hope to get the next chap up soon!
thank you for reading! i hope you enjoyed ♡
- noodles ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*