🖤Virgil🖤
When I wake up, I'm afraid somebody else might take my place
I wake up, feeling panicky, my body shaking as i look over to Roman, who moves a bit in his sleep, waking up.
"Virgil? Hey, what's wrong?" He asks, sitting up.
"Shut up! Leave me alone!" I say out of instinct.
He knows I don't mean these words and that they aren't fully directed twords them. He puts a hand on my sholder, shushing me and sitting closer to me.
I don't like you, you suck anyways, you make me want to scream, at, the top of my lungs.
"Your stupid! I don't like you!" I shout, covering my ears. As my breathing goes crazy.
"I know you don't mean those, calm down, hey, breathe please" I can tell he's genuinely worried, he's rubbing my sholders as if I'm freezing to death.
I focus on his touch muttering things like " your stupid, you know that right?" And "idiot" and I know he never takes it to heart.
I don't like you, fuck you anyways, you make me want to die
"Are you feeling better? Was it another nightmare?" Roman asks worry clear in his eyes.
I eventually calm down, breathing and leaning against him, letting him comfort me and wipe my tears.
"It's... it's nothing..Roman....." i pause to pant a couple of times, catching me breath and trying not to let my hands resolve into a puddle of sweat.
"If it made you react so harshly i highly doubt it was nothing." He says protectively.
"I'll tell you in the morning.. for now, just please hold and cuddle me until I fall asleep.." Roman opened his mouth to say something else, obviously worried and distressed, but closed it, nodding.
And we both held our end of the bargain.
