forever to be mine

I couldn't wait to move in to  my new house god i hated living with my parents, there good people but just not who i want to spend the rest of my life living with.

As i threw the last of my stuff into a bag i noticed i'd left something on the chest of drawers next too my bed it was a picture frame with me and the man i thought i could only ever love, that was all soon to change..............

i threw the last box into the car and gave my mam a hug and kiss i'l call when i'm settled then turned to my dad who i swear had tears in his eyes took me in a bear hug that was so tight i thought i would pass out at any second, "its OK dad" i screeched "i'l be fine i promise i'l phone all the time, it will be like i never left" with that he loosened his grasp and walked me to my car. I jumped into the drivers seat and started the engine, waving i slowly pulled out of the drive.

With a heavy heart i pulled on to the highway , i suddenly felt free and found myself singing along to "living on a prayer" with Jon Bon Jovi. i didn't feel like the worst daughter that ever lived anymore i was able to do as i wanted without having to worry about the consequence of my actions as my mother would say when i'd come home late after been out with my boyfriend Christian- god just thinking his name made my blood boil if it hadn't been for him and his stupid one night stand with the town whore Sarah, i wouldn't be leaving home to start a new life now on my own. In the blink of an eye i was awash with tears that dull ache was back in my chest again like my heart is caught in a vise and wont let go, i thought my heart would burst before it let its grip loose of me. I cant keep doing this to myself i thought to hell with him he can have the bitch they are most probably made for each other anyway one is as big a slut as the other  - they are my past and this is my future i called out as i pulled into the drive of my new home.

Although the tenancy agreement address read 16 Pattinson Drive the previous owners had renamed it to Rivendale House, it was beautiful and way too big for just little old me but i would get by, as i took a tour around i noticed the front garden was severely neglected the grass was over grown into almost a meadow and the trees and shrubs had definitely a mind of there own. It was then i saw him, he must have been at least 6' 1 maybe 2 with raven black hair with broad shoulders, he was mowing next doors front lawn. I couldn't help staring as he glided around the lawn sweat beads glistening down his already sun burnt tanned chest, his biceps seemed to dance in his arms i had been staring at him for so long i hadn't noticed he stopped and was looking straight at me i had that feeling again in the pit of my stomach i wanted the ground to open up and swallow me.

"Hey, you must be the new tenant i'm Joel nice to meet you" he said with a Cheshire cat grin from ear to ear- if i didn't know better i would swear he was gloating. "hi, yes i'm taking over for a while i'm Katelyn Taylor, do you live next door?? secretly i wished he did but at the same time i hoped he didn't he probably thinks i should be signed away into a mental institution for drooling over him the way i did. "ya, so i guess were neighbours, i'm just catching up on a few things around the house, back to work tomorrow and working 12 hour shifts meant iv little energy for doing the garden" he said sadly "what is it that you do, if you don't mind i asking" god i wish i hadn't said anything now he must think I'm a complete idiot  "i'm a paramedic" he said. OMG he's gorgeous has his own house and he's a paramedic and he talking to me!!!! can this really be happening......, "well i best let you get back to what your doing" he said smiling "just give a shout if you need anything " my face burned with embarrassment as i watched him walk further away. I suddenly remembered all the boxes and bags of clothes that were still waiting for me in the car -Oh crap! searching through my bag i finally found the ring of keys to the front door, with my fifth attempt i finally found the key for the front door as i heard the lock turn i  sighed with relief, before walking In i turned to cast a quick glimpse over the small wooden fence into Joel's garden he was gone "damn" i thought to myself.

As i opened the door dust and cobwebs greeted me, coughing and waving the cobwebs from my eyes i pushed on toward the kitchen.The hall was dark and gloomy with a shade of dusky pink on the walls the wooden staircase looked majestic-it covered the midsection of the long hallway, solid wooden steps with what looked like an ivory banister with a wroth iron rail beneath it- " hmmmm rich people" i thought, i had never been in a house like this before i was almost scared to breath in case i caused irretrievable damage to my delicate surroundings. To my left were two tall wooden doors with a glass panel on the top with all the dust i couldn't make out the design, i opened the doors and entered a large what looked to be living room it had a long corner shaped couch in the centre of the room and on the walls were shelf upon shelf of books in every shape and size its not a living room at all its a library, to the right of the room was a writing desk with a leather swivel chair this will make a great office.