forever to be mine

Chapter 7

I had no idea how i got home and now that i'v woken up properly i'm realise I'm  alone where is Joel? He was here last night i remember cuddling up to him, i could smell his after shave off my pillows, the bed was still warm from where he lay with me, Turning over i heard a crunching sound like paper, Throwing my hand around the duvet i find what appears to be a note,

Katelyn, going to work will be home tonight sorry i have to leave you alone i miss you already even thought i'm looking at you sleeping as i write this, i'l be thinking of you til your back in my arms again, love J XXX

Smiling i folded the note and placed it into the drawer in my night stand,

Today was going to be a long day and i had no idea what to do, i really should start into my job working from home is great but also has its draw backs like taking the day off whenever i feel like it- which for me has been everyday since i met Joel, I'v put it off for too long!

A hot shower was just the thing to get my morning started i put on my favourite jeans, vest top and my Son's of Anarchy hoodie my dad got me cos i loved those bad boys so much.

In the library i pulled out the big white box with "WORK" scribbled on it, opening it a load of papers fell out landing on the ground next to my bare feet, i pick them up and place them on my desk i find my textbooks on how to help young girls who are or have been victims of abuse. this is going to be so different than working in the hospital, St. John's wasn't exactly the most happening of places but at least there were a few friendly faces. some of the nurses would look down there noses at me been a councillor isn't a real profession to them sure they deal with the victims when they are all raw and bloody and beaten but that's when i take over and look after there mental state which is far harder to fix- a band aid and a paracetamol cant stop the recurring nightmares and flashbacks. I know~ been there done that~. I loved my work but i hated it too, there is no joy in watching young women squirming in there seats in fits of tears as they tell there story of pain and violence.

I sort through my paper work and files, endless mounts of paperwork and pages with little diagrams and scribbles, Jesus i really need a change of career i'v been through too much myself i cant help people anymore i can barely help myself.

new life,  new start, ...... new job!!!

What the hell am i thinking i cant just decide to up and leave a well paid job what would Joel think............ mmmmmm Joel i wonder whats he doing now probably saving someones life or bringing a new baby into the world.....wish i'd done nursing with Maeve it  would have been fun learning about anatomy and stuff with her, i really miss her.............