forever to be mine

chapter 8

Fighting a loosing battle with all the paper work, i gave in and headed for the kitchen, i had been so busy i completely lost track of the time and the strange but loud noise coming from my stomach. Of course i was hungry i hadn't eaten since dinner last night with Joel in the restaurant just thinking of that Delicious food was making me even more hungry. looking through the presses i notice they are bare of course they are i haven't needed food as iv always had Joel here to wait on me hand and foot and wine and dine me- not that I'm complaining i loved every second of it. I decided it would have to be take out delivered of course! reaching into the press for the delivery leaflet that was dropped in a day or so ago, someone grabbed me around the waste, terrified i remembered what my dad always told me if a guy comes after you in a way you don't want just kick him where it hurts, raising my leg to kick him good and hard............. "I'v missed you baby" said a familiar voice..............., Joel he's home. I relaxed in his warm embrace taking in his scent, it felt good to have him back holding me never want him to let go. I turned to kiss his soft lips when he stopped me, please don't move I'm enjoying this too much he said in a soft velvet voice, i couldnt help but lean in to him his voice had a way to calm me. Afer about 15 minutes Joel still hadnt loosend his grip on me, it had me a little worried he was never stuck for words one of my favourite things about Joel was i never had to make conversation he always did the talking i would usually agree or nod my head i guess we have a funny relationship. "Joel, are you ok??" i asked unsure if i wanted the answer but it was out now... "Not exactly, i think we need to talk about something" he said sadly. This is it he's finaly coped on how stupid and damaged i really am

Too scared to look at him I slowly turned to the kitchen table and sat down. My heart was jumping around in my chest, this can't be happening to me I can't loose him not Joel he mended a broken heart that I believed could never be fixed but he did he made me whole again. If he leaves me now il surely die.