JEALOUSY

♡chapter 4♡

Lana's pov.

All I could think about was how much I fucked things up with Marina. All I ever do is push away people to the point where they can't take it and leave. They all leave me even Barrie did. He was the only person who really loved me I know my family and Chuck did but not as much as Barrie. He cared for me and all I ever did was push him away. Thinking about him makes me so sad. I decided to watch a movie they bring me a little happiness and with this numbness I feel I will take what I get. I decided to watch an old film called Valley Of The Dolls I always loved this movie half way through I hear a knock at the door. I pause the movie and get up from my black couch. The knocks don't stop "I'm coming calm down!" I scream as I make my way towards the door stopping to look at my reflection. I looked awful. I open the door and who do I see? Her I see her. "Oh lizzy, you look terrible! " Marina steps past me with her suitcases and sits on the couch.

Marina's pov.

I take in Lizzy's appearance. She has black tear stains down her cheek and her lips are cracked and her cheeks are puffy and her eyes are bloodshot. Has she been drinking? It's only 1:30 pm. As I pass the mirror hanging from her wall I see my reflection and realized I shouldn't have committed on hers when I look worse I mean, sure my hair isn't messy like hers but I look like a hot mes and my wrist are slightly bruised from Burns grabbing them so hard. As I sit down I realized that Liz has been watching my all time favorite movie Valley Of The Dolls I mean everyone knows how much I love this movie I wrote a god damn book about it! Elizabeth is at the part where Jennifer realizes how shitty her life is and takes way to many dolls (pills) and commits suicide. I always hated Neeley for the way she treated Jenifer.

As Lana sits on the chair across from me she examines me probably thinking why the hell I came back here  I decided that we should talk to I turn the movie off and start by explaining everything that had happened.

"Oh Marina! I'm so sorry that happened to you, I shouldn't have let you leave" she says something else under her breath but I didn't catch it. "I'm sorry I keep coming back here its just I know he would find me if I stayed with the people he knows and I just can't be with him anymore. " I start to cry mentally cussing myself out that I keep doing this in front of her. "Marina, look up at me" I do as told not by choice but force she pulls my head up to hers. she's kneeling in front of me in some short shorts and a black lace bra in a white see through shirt. "Honey he is no good for you I want the best for you but you have to leave him I know it is going to be hard but just thinking how aggressive he is to you is just wrong. You are a beautiful soft flower and he is just harsh rain that keeps trampling over your feelings and I can't take it you deserve someone better." When I heard that I started crying again he words hit me hard. Her comparing me to a flower made me feel happy only a happy that she can supply.  I hugged her and cried into her shoulder trying to tell her thank you but it comes off a little hard to understand but she let's go of me  and wipes my tears from my face and smiles at me telling me it's ok.

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We were lying down on her bed talking about TV shows when I got a message from Burns.
Marina get your fatass over here I need your love. The text made me do angry that I threw my phone into my suitcase. "You ok babe?" Lana's angelic voice said "Look at my phone." I said angerly. "This has to stop now I'm calling to get you a body gaurd and tomorrow I will come with you but you are breaking up with him ok?" it came out more as an order than question but I nodded my head. When I was with Liz she made me feel safe. I think I was falling For Lizzy Grant.

"Yes this is Lana del rey and I'm calling for an escort to my friends boyfriends house to break up with him and we need protection. Yes..No....No....Maybe...Yes ok 9 am tomorrow please don't be late. OK thanks see ya tomorrow" Liz hung up the phone and smiled at me. "It's all taken care of now let's go wash our faces we look wretched." Ad we clean our faces I notice how beautiful her face is without makeup. She grabs eyeliner and I stop her "I think you look better without makeup Lizzy" She smiles at me and winks and walks out the bathroom and on her way out she smacks my but. "Ow!" I scream "Slap ass Friday" Liz says I reply with  "it's Thursday dumbass!" we burst into hysterical laughs and I climb into her head and pat the spot next to me for her to sit. "Tomorrow we're going to the club." Liz eyes me for a moment.  "Oh Marina I had no clue you were that type of girl! aha" we start talking and we both fall asleep I don't know who went to sleep frist but it ended the night to a disastrous day.

A/N

I really like writting this so I think I'm going to update everyday now and I hope you like it! <3