JEALOUSY

♡chapter 15♡

Lanas pov.

"I hate you." Marina finished her long rant be those venomous words. They struck me hard. As she slammed the door I knew I should've gone after her but I couldn't I was paralyzed by her words. I hate you played over and over again in my head. I sunk down to the floor. Ai wasn't hungry or thirsty. I quickly ran to get a knife. With each cut I felt numb. I threw the knife across the room. What normally made me feel better wasn't doing anything. I gave up on life I gave up on happiness.

If I didn't see Barrie this wouldn't have happened. If I left the hospital when Marina did I wouldn't have bumped into Barrie. If I would have just decided to go shopping it would've been fine.

Maybe I wasn't supposed to be happy maybe this is ok. Missed marina, hell I need Marina, I will get her back but first I need to find out what Ellie told her.

Marinas pov.

I knocked at her door repeatedly until Calvin opened up. I pushed past him to find Ellie walking down the stairs rubbing her eyes. "Marina? What are you doing here?" I ran and hugged her tight I needed a friend.

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"wow" was all Ellie could manage to say after u told her what happened I looked at my clock seeing it was 4:47 am. "I don't know what I'm going to do Ellie I loved her and I still do.I just feel lost without her." I admit to Ellie she quickly responds with "She was never good for you all she makes you do is cry. you don't love her." I get angry over this. You don't love her replays over and over again. I don't love her? I love her with all of my heart I miss her laugh, the way she dances like a 4 year old and her soothing touch and the way her voice is so angelic and the way her songs make me feel like nothing I have ever felt before. "yeah..." I trailed off from the conversation.

Ellie noticed me getting distracted and decided to let me stay the night or day and took me to her guest bedroom. "Here you can stay over for tonight and we'll Calvin and I are heading over to London to see my parents and should be back next month you are welcomed to stay for however long you need. I will call Charli and tell her to spend some time here with you." she kissed my forehead. I winced and think she noticed. Her kiss wasn't as sweet as Elizabeths. "I want the best for you Marina." and with that she left me to the room to sulk and hide from the world. I looked around observing the room.

There was one queen size bed next to the door. There was a creme rug on the floor.

The curtains were the same color as the rug the room had a vintage 60's feel to it. I very much liked the style in that era. I have based many of my songs off that time. I sit on the bed and think...I wish I had my clothes that I left at Elizabeths. I climb into bed grab my phone and decided to go on a little twitter rant.
What is love anyway

The single life is the best life

I have never loved anyone before.

I once knew a person who talked like a baby, Haha what a freak.

Don't tell me you love me when you dont.

Can cheeters go fall off a cliff?

I watched as my phone exploded with messages from my fans saying things like "Did you and Lana break up?" "what happened" "I though Larina was forever?" I favorited the last tweet talking about Larina. I tagged Elizabeth in it while retweeting

"Me too" I added on.

I hoped Elizabeth saw my tweets.