mixnine. woo jinyoung

XXXIX. To Debut Or To Not

"Here we have, all the contestants!" Hongchul boomed, after we all seated down. We had finished performing "Just Dance". It was so long ago that I realized how far me and the other trainees on this program have come.

We all seated down, nervously awaiting for the results. Would I be pushed down from my 1st place spot, on the final?

Hongchul started announcing, from first place for the boys. I saw Jinyoung's calm and serious expression. He must be 1st this time.

"1ST PLACE: WOO JINYOUNG!"

Everyone started clapping, and honestly it wasn't a big surprise to me. He was undefeated first place almost the entire season, after all.

"FOR 1ST PLACE GIRLS: HWANG JIHYUN!!"

My mouth dropped open and I covered it. I had confidence in ranking high, but I still doubted that I was going to be first forever. After the girls congratulated me I went onstage.

Jinyoung grinned at me and gave me a thumbs up, and I clapped at him.

The rest of the ranks were revealed, and I was happy to see Ryujin remaining as 2nd place.

Here were the ranks:

1. Me
2. Ryujin
3. Soomin
4. Small Soomin
5. Heejin
6. Yujin
7. Moonhee
8. Sori
9. Hyokyung

(A/N: for the sake of the story, Hayoung isn't part of the top9 in this :,,( but pls stan talent stan hayoung)

I cheered as they made their way onstage. I was disappointed to not see all of my friends (basically all the girls) onstage, and especially sad that Sujin wasn't there. She was in the crowd, cheering us all on.

"NOW, FOR THE BIGGEST MOMENT IN MIXNINE..." Hongchul announced. "OUT OF THE BOYS AND GIRLS, WHICH TOP9 TEAM WILL DEBUT?"

The crowd cheered loudly, and I heard both girls and boys. I wanted to debut so badly.

On the screen, showed the numbers 7866 showed up for the girls.

My heart started racing a million times faster. "Please..."

Slowly, the numbers __14 showed up.

It turned to _114.

If the last digit was 7, the girls would debut.

If I could debut, I would make mom so proud. I would make my family that wasn't here proud. I wanted to debut. I had to debut.

The numbers for the boy's team showed up.

8114.

The boys had won.

I felt my heart dropped to my stomach, but for the sake of sportsmanship and Jinyoung, I clapped and gave a sad smile.

Jinyoung and the boys jumped around excitedly, hugging and congratulating each other, and so did we. He deserves it.

I can still make everyone proud. I thought. I wasn't as heartbroken as I thought I'd be. I grew a lot being on Mixnine, and that was enough for me. When I debut, I would show an even better side of me.

I pulled my close friends into a hug. "Thank you. For working hard and helping me in the hardest times." I whispered.

"Let's see each other on the stage, next time." Jung Sara said.

Before I knew it, I started to cry, along with everyone else. I was more heartbroken that Mixnine was ending, and to leave my friends than the thought of not debuting.

"C-crybaby--" Ryujin sobbed and pointed to me, grabbing me into a hug.

I sniffled. "Look who's talking."

Jinyoung said a few words into the microphone, and I saw his tears which made me want to run over and hug him.

I was passed the microphone and chuckled. "I-I'm very happy for the Boy's team. I will support their debut, and I will continue to support the girls as well. Thank you for watching and supporting me--all of us. We hope to make it far because of you all. THANK YOU!" I wiped my tears and bowed 90 degrees several times to the crowd.

Our goodbyes never seemed to stop. I would hug and cry to the members of the girls team over and over again. It felt depressing to leave and part from them.

I wiped my tears with my sleeve and glanced at Jinyoung, who was looking as me as well. I hoped he wasn't worried that I was mad at him, we made a promise that the result weren't going to effect our relationship at all, after all.

Jinyoung smiled sadly and walked towards me, regardless of the multiple cameras still filming.

I grinned as he crushed me into a tight hug.

The audience around us went wild.

So did the girls and boys.

And the judges.

Thus, it was probably a bad idea, but I didn't care in that moment.

Jinyoung smoothed out my hair. "I'm sorry."

I laughed. "Why are you sorry?"

"Because both of us couldn't debut."

"You don't need to be sorry." I said. "It would have to happen in the end. You need it more than me, anyways."

"I'm so sorry."

"Stop saying sorry, Jinyoung." I chuckled and hit his back. "I'm proud of you, you deserve it most."

He started to cry. "W-what did I d-do to deserve you~"

"Ah, you're such a cryyybaby~" I teased. "Stop crying now, you're going to make me cry again." I said as my eyes teared up for the 50th time today.

"You're going to debut. And I'll be your biggest fanboy, Jihyun." Jinyoung said and sniffled.

I laughed. "Then I'll be your biggest fangirl."

"No you won't, you'd probably be my anti-fan."

"How could you even say that~~" I whined. "But thanks for the idea."

"Noooo~"

"You should let go now, they're filming us and the crowd has been screaming for five minutes straight." I said.

"I want to kiss you right now so badly." Jinyoung muttered in my ear.

"Nope, not happening, unless you want your army of fangirls to stomp on me the next day." I said.

Jinyoung chuckled and pulled back. "I wish I could, but I know I cant."

"Me too." I said.

Jinyoung's jaw dropped and a wide grin crawled up his face.

I covered my mouth. "Never mind."

Jinyoung chuckled and got closer.

I glanced at him weirdly, until he whispered three words into my ear, and casually walked back--not even glancing behind him. My cheeks heated up hearing those words from him.

"I love you."