Letter to your father (ff. Min Yoongi) *BACK FROM HIATUS*

Going Home

EDITED

Belle POV

Today I'm going back home, to England. I've been here in South Korea for almost 2 weeks. I went to different restaurants, trying their best food and also visited the different regions in South Korea, to try their local foods. It was a fantastic experience. I look a bit bloated, because of all the food.

My flight is in 2 hrs. While waiting for my flight, i went on to the BTS twitter account. Scrolling down and liking all their post that i missed from the 2 weeks trip.

Yes, I'm an ARMY and it was a great honour to have sex with Yoongi that i could die from the shock and i still think it was all a dream but it wasn't. He was there. He slept like a log and he was beautifully sleeping. It was undeniably Min Yoongi, his skin was smooth and clear. I need to forget what happened that night but i can't.

I shouldn't think of impure things, after what happened i have promised to God that I'll be careful and never have sex with strangers again even if they are BTS.

Author's POV

However, deep inside of you wanted to stay. You wanted to meet him and you wanted to be with him. It was phenomenal experience. It was your first and you don't regret anything that happened. You know a part of you prays that he remembers you. A tiny lil bit of hope you have inside of you, hopes he will look for you but you don't want to hope and be disappointed again.

_FEW HOURS LATER_

You finally arrived back to England and guilt is eating you inside. You promised to your mother that you will have sex after marriage but you did it and guilty to say, you loved every second of it.

You don't like taking the taxi because of the traffic and it's more expensive since you're a cheap ass woman, you decided to take the train.

Sitting by the window and looking outside, to see the beautiful sceneries while the train is moving which creates a peace ambiance for you. It helped you think. In your head, you were afflicted to whether to tell your mother what happened in South Korea because you tell her everything. However, you decided to keep this as a secret because you know she would put the fault on herself, she will think she didn't brought you up properly.

You came from a broken family. Your father cheated and had another family behind your back. Your family consisted with your parents and your 3 other siblings. You lived in a big house and you have more other houses and you were well off. Your life was perfect. But that's what you thought, after your mother discovered your father was cheating on her. She cheated as well because she was betrayed and hurt, she needed somebody.

Since your mother worked far away so she lived separately from you. You often visit her because you know she gets easily lonely. When she comes home, your parents would fight all the time and you got used to it.

Without realising what your siblings was feeling about your family situation because you were also drown in your emotions that was slowly drowning you as they build up and gets heavier and heavier. That you became emotionless. Death was your only solution to that. You wanted stop these emotions that you don't want anyone to see. So no one will know how vulnerable and weak you are. You wanted to die so you could ran away from the criticism you received about your family.

You attended church service every sundays to find salvation and hope in your situation but it was useless. Your family broke. However, your mother continued going to church, to pray and ask for forgiveness. Pray for your family.

When your parents divorced. You thought, your shackles will set you free but no, it brought you down and in the deep, where you keep your emotions. You broke-down.

You were so concerned about yourself. You forgot about your siblings. They were trying to cope with the situation with their own different methods such as drugs, women, sex, money and suicide.