Letter to your father (ff. Min Yoongi) *BACK FROM HIATUS*

Scars

_AUTHOR POV_

Your journey from the airport to your home is 2 hrs journey. You decided to listen to BTS Spring Day. While looking outside and enjoying the scenery, being alone was a best time to reminisce. This song has a soft spot on your heart.

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Your brother was a wonderful and funny young man. He was a very protective brother. Unfortunately, you couldn't protect him from drowning from his own emotions. You couldn't possibly saved him as you were also drowning from yours. He continued using drugs to escape the truth. Every night he will go clubbing and in the morning he's at work looking good on the outside but empty on the inside.

He went clubbing that night. He leaves at night and come back in the morning and you got used to it. You let him leave the house as it was a normal part of your lifestyle for him not to be present at night. However, you weren't alone since you have 2 other sisters, a young one and an older one. You weren't exactly closed. The divorced of your parents affected not only you but everyone. Especially the people from the church, they say they are concern but they criticise your family for being broken. I know we are not perfect.

That night when your brother left was like a normal night. Nothing unusual. You were alone in your room. Watching youtube videos, you were already a big fan of kpop. You stumbled across BTS song I NEED YOU. The mv struck you real hard and like it gave you a real punch in the face. I'm lonely. Please somebody free me.

You fell asleep after crying listening to BTS new album 'The most beautiful moment in life' (all of it). However, you woke up from a ring coming from downstairs in your living room. It was your telephone. You ran to get it because you felt that it was important.

You picked up and answered. "Hello, Belle Jones speaking, how may i help you?" You tried to sound polite but you were angry because you were awaken from your slumber. "This is the police. We would like to know if you're somehow related to Mathew Jones? Are you perhaps his sister or mother?" The man asked. You replied, "Yes, i am his sister. Why? Did something happen? Did my brother get in trouble?" Your tone was different, far from polite since you were worried and scared. You had a bad feeling about this call.

The man in the phone replied "I suggest that, you come to the XXX hospital and we will tell you all the details and it's an emergency. I strongly advice you immediately get here because your brother was sent to the hospital for drug overdose. The nurses and doctors are currently checking his pulse and trying to keep him alive. Thank you very much and I appreciate your time."

You ran upstairs to wake up your sisters. You immediately called your parents but your dad phone rang and went straight to his voicemail. Unfortunately, you were not surprised he was unreachable like all the time.

You took the taxi along with your sisters and arrived in XXX hospital after 15 minutes drive. You sprinted right straight to the reception. "Mathew Jones room please?" you spoke while panting. "That would be B105, its in the second floor turn left after you get out of the lift and go down straight" After the reception gave you directions, you just ran forgetting to thank her.

As soon as you got out from the elevator, you sprinted straight to the left. For someone who is frail and small, you gave everything just to reach to your brother. You arrived to the allocated room. You broke down.

He was dead. He died.

It was a normal night. Nothing unusual was happening until you received that call.

Your brother died due to drug overdosed. Drugs helped him escaped the pain and judgement that he received from everyone. The words that was said that hurt him. Words and stares can kill.

All he needed was comfort. All you need is comfort. All he needed was acceptance. All you need is acceptance. That moment you realised... I wasn't the only hurting. We were all hurting. I was too blinded and I couldn't see you suffering. I'm sorry. I love you brother.

After that event in your life, you changed. You tried to changed. You started to love and accept others. You wanted someone to accept you. Instead, he broke you more and betrayed you like your dad.

It was like watching a replay of your parents' love. However, it was the scene when your dad cheated on your mother.