Letter to your father (ff. Min Yoongi) *BACK FROM HIATUS*

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"People Keep Telling me that Life goes on, but to me that's the saddest part."

_Jin POV_

Belle and her sister Mira left the room. I know that Mira doesn't trust me since she didn't acknowledge my presence and i know she hates me by neglecting Minnie in the past but I'm now committing myself to my daughter.

"I will never lose her, now that i finally found my happiness, my daughter. I already lost her mother..."

Minnie and I have been playing and talking about her imagination. It's really warm, she's really warm- this happiness is what i desire and losing Michelle was the result of my sin. - running away because i was scared...

Minnie stood up and ran to her grandmother, she left me confused sitting on the floor. I heard her say "ma is awake" it immediately alarmed me to tell Belle about these news but before i could ran to Belle- I caught a glimpse of Mrs. Jones eyes, her eyes smiled at me and it was kind instead of receiving hatred which i should since i left her daughter but she was different- it felt like she was hoping for me to come and that she knew that i was Minnie's father.

Then i alarmed both the ladies about their mother's latest condition.

"BELLE SHE'S AWAKE!!!"

"DOC! DOC!" is all i could shout.

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_Belle POV_

Mother is awake and tears are threatening to fall again but i mustn't. Crying won't help but it will only break my mother's heart like she used to say "Don't cry, your tears breaks my heart, although it's my fault. You are too precious and i love you no.matter.what. Okay?"

I have to be strong for my mother, she single-handedly took care of us after dad left us to start a family of his  own with some other woman. I don't hate him, because my mother loves him no matter what he did to her, she stayed by his side but it was him who left.

I held my mother's hand, she's having difficulties with her breathing but she insisted to talk. Then she said "Belle, why don't you introduce me that fine man beside you?" Then it hit me- Oh!! she must talking about Jin.

"Mom, this is Jin, a friend of mine who took care of me while i was in Japan-" i looked at Jin and he continued my introduction by saying "Mrs. Jones, my name is Kim Seokjin" as soon as she heard the name Kim she reached out for Jin to hold her hand and she smiled "Continue Mr. Kim" leaving us confuse on what she is doing... "oh okay Mrs. Jones- umm... I'm grateful of your daughter Belle, she trusted me enough to be her friend and for her to bring me here is the greatest gift i could ever asked... Mrs. Jones- the truth is I'm Minnie's dad"

I'm not expecting my mother to open her arms and welcome him with love but to my surprise she did what i didn't expect her to do.

She said "I know and i waited long enough- it was worth the wait. Thank you for coming back and please take care of my children and my grandchild Mr. Kim"

"Mom, you must be kidding with me" Mira shouted, causing Minnie to cry and for us to flinched.

"Mira enough" i said and i gave her an intimidating glare thats translates to "Shut the f*** up because you have no choice"

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_Author POV_

There was an awkward pause and silence between your family, you can only hear Jin singing for Minnie to make her stop from crying. His voice was soothing and even Minnie agreed since she smiled and stopped crying "pa sounds beautiful" earning a laugh from your mother and she said "You're definitely the father"

Then the doctor came inside...

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~Few days later~

_BELLE POV_

Minnie finally met Jin which is her father and mother finally met Jin. He apologised and was forgiven. Mira is still working in trusting Jin. I am still working on telling Yoongi and Im conflicting whether to tell him personally or not.

I envy... Jin and Minnie especially Minnie... I want my child to feel that joy and only their father can give that I cannot... should I break my walls let him in? in my life? BUT how about his career?!! The public? His Band?? Their company?! Their fans? What about yoongi? Does he want this child? Does he even remember me? Does he read my letters?

If- if he does then maybe- just maybe, he can love me too.... Then maybe he'll let us in, in his life and be the father of my child.

What if-

Maybe-

We could happen...

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"I wore a white dress today since mother loves white. Pathetic fallacy, I learned that in English class and I remember using it for my essays. The endowment of nature, inanimate object with human traits and feelings. I never thought I would ever use in life, this is pathetic fallacy. White represents purity and holiness. A kind colour that gives you peace and you were my salvation. You weren't a god but you were my home and light- the light that guides me back. They say Jesus is the light and salt for the world but you were my light in my world and salt because you let me experiences life and emotions. However, you were also hurt and you needed a light and salt in your life. We were your salt and light. You hid things from us so that we won't get hurt. You kept everything to yourself so that we won't be burden. Even in the end you were smiling and kind. You accepted me and forgave me. I thought you would be disappointed for what I have done. I repeated the same act as my sister, the act that broke your heart but you smiled and said "Finally!!! You found someone and don't let them go". I kept on asking on why you would say that and now I know it's because you love me... even if I self loathe but you were always pray for our joy and you forget about yourself. You care too much and you are so selfless. Thank you mother and I hope you are happy but don't worry anymore, we'll be strong for you."

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_JIN POV_

After that speech that Belle made... I couldn't take it but cry... to my left I can see Mira crying- even though she acts tough in front of me and she hates me but I know she only does that because she cares for her family and I want to be like that for my family- for Belle and Mira, Minnie and the boys.

I may have not known Mrs. Jones with my whole life but the hours, minutes and seconds that I spent with her was special to me. She was kind, forgiving and genuine. She believed in me after all I did. She treated me like a son and welcome me as myself- not as the man who abandoned her daughter or not an idol. She treated me like I was normal which I haven't felt in a long time. Fans, media and the public in general would scream at our faces and camera flashing and articles are written about us whether they are true or not they are published to the public for our own good or not. Despite all of that with her little time in earth she used it to get to know me and my career especially the boys. She was too good for this world.

It all happened when Mrs. Jones woke up and the doctor came in... who will soon bring news... the news that will break our hearts.

RIP
MRS. DANIELLA JONES
31/10/2017