Impossible

Chapter 5

I wake up softly to the sound of two people whispering. More like whisper fighting. I look around and realize I'm on the couch remembering where I was last night. I sit up and scan the room for jack, but he isn't there, so he must be apart of the whisper fight. I slowly sit up trying not to let myself be heard. I tip toe towards the kitchen and crouch behind the counter. "Has she found out yet?" "No I don't think so, I asked her to be my girlfriend and she said yes, like I knew she would." "Perfect, so tonight do the same thing and when she falls asleep call me and I'll come over." "Ok babe, I love you." Kissing was then heard.  I felt tears pool in my eyes but I wasn't going to cry. I need to see who this girl was. I ubrutly stood up from my hiding place and was ready to fight whoever this girl was. But I was really surprised by the two people I saw. Instead of seeing jack and some lanky girl I saw Mrs. Grazer with another man, who I assumed wasn't jacks father. Mrs grazer and the man released and then whipped there heads around to see me. I stood their in shook and confused. "Oh my y/n..." she started but I didn't want to here it. I ran away, down the hall to my room. I shut the door and locked it. I don't know why I'm so sad, she's not even my mom. But then again, I know why I'm sad, because I can relate. 

~flash back~8 years old~

I sat in my room doodiling on the card board I grabbed from outside. I was drawing a pirate ship and an awfully good one to. Hmm I just need to get my purple crayon for the windows. I thought as I got up and walked into the living room. My eyes were not prepared for what I was going to see. There on our torn up and ripped yellow stained couch sat my mommy and another man. They were kissing quite passionately and seemed as if there was no stop. My mothers shirt was on the floor. And the mans pants and shirt was on the floor. The man broke their kiss to unzip her pants but froze when he saw me. My mom turned around, confused why he stopped and saw me. Instead of hurt she had anger in her eyes. She got off the man and walked towards me then grabbed me by the shirt. "I swear to god if you tell your father about this you won't live for you 16th birthday. so what the hell do you want." She whispered yelled at me. Why was she mad at me. I just wanted to get my purple crayon and walked in on this. I just shook my head and stuttered," I just wa wa wanted my p pu pur purple cray." I said slowly trying to hold back tears. "Your to fucking slow go back to your room and don't come back down!" She yelled pushing me back towards my room making me fall. With no hesitation she took off her pants reveling her red thong and went over to the man. That was enough, I knew what would happen next. For being so young I learned fast from the words on the streets. I went back to my room and closed the door. "OHHHH OH YESSS BABY OH FUCK HE GOOD!" I could her my mom yelling and then the strange man grunting. I grabbed my only pillow and wrapped it around my head trying to block out the sound, but I couldn't. "UGHHHHHHHHH AHHHHH IM GONNA GONNA!" She yelled again louder. That was it, I grabbed my flashlight and jumped out my window, and fell into the bushes. I could still hear the moans and groans coming from inside the house and I just ran. I ran to the only place I knew, Emily's house. When I got there I broke down. Falling apart. My father was gone for not even two days and my mom was now sleeping with another man she probably picked up at the bar. It was around 7 in the afternoon on a Saturday, so I was allowed to spend the night. But, I had to get home before my father came home, and act like nothing happened. 

~flash back ends~

"Y/n!" I heard banging on the door. She sounded frantic and nervous. "I'm I'm going to be late, we'll talk about this tonight, but please. Just .....don't tell jack." She said and walked away. I heard her walk right out the front door. I still hid in the closet even though I didn't have to hide. Old habit I guess. I got up and looked at the clock. 7:08. I decided to get ready but I haven't decided what I was going to do about what just happened. I grabbed my plain black shirt and the same jeans from yesterday. Then walked into the bathroom to finish up. ....... I walked out, dressed but not ready for what today, especially tonight brings. I unlocked my door and took a deep breath. I turned and looked back at the clock before walking out. 7:43. I then walked out into the hall closing my door. I walked into the kitchen and then into the living room and found jack on his phone. I sat next to him and he looked up. " I thought you were getting ready." He said as he turned his phone off and set it next to him. "Yeah." I said smiling but sad. He noticed. He could see right through me. "Y/n are you okay?" He asked scooting closer to me. "Ya, of corse." I lied. He just gave me a look of, I know your not, but shook his head. "Ok, I guess if you don't want to tell me that's fine." He said and continued on. Should I tell him though, I mean right now is a good time and I don't want to be day one into our relationship and be hiding things from him. "Y/n?" He said staring at me giving me a lovely smile. I'm just not ready to shatter his heart. "What? Sorry, zoned out." I said. Jack smiled and repeated what he told me before,"what do you wanna do today?" . I thought, and I honestly had no clue." Umm  I don't know?" I stated and this time I was telling the truth. He then sat back and scratched his head also wondering. He then looked at me, up and down. I shifted, "what?" I asked. "Are those the same pants from yesterday?" He asked. "What, um yeah why?" I asked very confused. "Why didn't you wear a different pair today?" He asked. Ok where is this going? " because these are my only other pants that look decent, jack what is all of this about?" I said sitting up straight making me feel bad, I can't afford any other clothes. "I know what we're doing today!" He said and got up grabbing his phone and slipping it in his pocket. "What?" I said following him to the edge of the stairs. He walked up halfway and then turned and shouted back, "well, we can't have you only wearing 4 outfits for the rest of the summer! " He said and ran to his room. What the? I just went back to my room and put on my worn out dirty converse. Then was met with jack at the front door. "Jack, I'm still confused?" I said as he opened up the door. "I'm taking you shopping." He said and with that we hopped in the car and drove to what I suppose was the mall. I've never been to the mall, I mean I've been to target once with Emily. I sighed at her name. I miss her, but what she did was terrible. I was still lost in my thoughts till jack shook my arm. "We're here come on , get out ." He said excitedly. Now why is jack, a guy, so excited about going to the mall? I got out and we walked to the mall together locking our arms. We walked through two glass doors and it was gigantic. High tall white and glass ceilings, shiny white tile floors, a fountain and small plants placed everywhere. Not to mention the ten stores I can see right from where I'm standing. "Welcome to BeachPalm Mall." Jack said letting go of me and extending his arms and walking backwards, to look at me. I just smiled and looked all around then looked back at jack as he ran into a potted bush and almost fell backwards. I giggled," how did you know I've never been to the mall." I said grabbing him and then walking. "Um I honestly didn't, this is just the place I always get clothes." He said and shrugged his shoulders. "Is Sophia or Finn or any of your friends going to meet up with us?" I said still looking at the stores we were passing by. "No, I thought this could just be a me and you day?" He said looking at me nervously, "unless you want me to invite them I mean.." "jack it's fine, I'm happy just being with you." I said which made him glow. "Lets go in here." He said pulling me into... Hollister. I've seen the popular and rich girls at school wear some of these brands."so have anything in mind?" Jack said as we walked in. " I've always wanted a Hollister hoodie." I said as we walked towards the women section. I smiled as he pulled me along and we walked in front of a rack full of hoodies and sweatshirts. My mouth opened in awe staring at the many many hoodies hung on the rack. I looked at jack as he smiled brightly at me. He nodded to the clothes , "good ahead.". I started shifting through the clothes and saw 4 hoodies I liked, but couldn't make up my mind. "Here lets go to the dressing room." He said as we walked towards a room. "Sorry only women, no men allowed in the women's changing sections." The man said. "I'll come out and show you each one. " I stated. I went back and found a room closest to the exit. I slipped on the first sweatshirt I chose, a navy blue sweatshirt that said Hollister on the back and had a seagull in the top left corner. I walked out and showed him , "ok so you have to give me your honest opinion ok, tell me if you don't like it ok!" I said and gave a little spin. He smiled, "I like it, but it looks a little boring." He said, "agreed." I loved that he was honest. I went back and tried on the other three. I ended up buying the last one which we both agreed was the best and the most unique...