i'm glad ; k.sy

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about two weeks later seungyoon stroked taehyun's blonde hair, while said boy was sleeping with the head on seungyoon's chest. it was 2 in the morning and he suddenly urged to smoke a cigarette- but he had never smoked before and after all that's just what they do in movies, not in reality.

well, taehyun used to smoke from time to time, but he was still asleep, luckily.

right in these moments seungyoon felt the most insecure; it was as if the whole world was alseep and left him alone with his thoughts and mistakes. unconciously he pulled taehyun closer into his embrace, but still he felt unbearable lonely.

he attempted not to focus on his argument with kyungmi, which weighed him down even more than he had expected. besides that there was his soft boyfriend, who he had hurt plenty of times already and who he'd probably hurt again.

then why does he still stay by my side?
because he loves me? does he really?

and again seungyoon felt so guilty, because he wasn't able to say it back, those small, three words. but he just couldn't, because it simply wasn't true and seungyoon didn't want to lie to taehyun.

suddenly the blonde in his arms shifted and slowly opened his eyes, while arching his head to look at seungyoon.

"why're you crying, baby?" he whispered with a worried experession.

confused seungyoon touched his face, feeling his wet cheeks. "i don't know..." he bit his lower lip, so he wouldn't sob. "i just know, that i don't deserve you."

"you know, that's not true at all." taehyun wrapped his arm around seungyoon's waist and looked at him again. "i can't solve what's wrong, but i can try to ease your pain until you stop crying."

although seungyoon knew, this was exactly what taehyun was trying to do, it hurt him even more; because now he was certain, that he didn't deserve someone like him.

so he cupped taehyun's cheeks and kissed him on his soft lips, so lightly, that the kiss was almost non existent. just forget... just for one night...

after a night full of hugs, kisses and soft moans the sun rose again and seungyoon felt, as if taehyun wasn't the one he wanted to share all of this with.

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okay tbh i was really looking foreward to writing this chapter
it's just kinda funny, because in the original plot, taehyun didn't have that much screen time