i'm glad ; k.sy

020

taehyun had asked seungyoon to see him at the diner where they had met for the first time. latter already sensed what was going to happen, since they hadn't even talked in about a month.

although this wasn't correct; taehyun had wanted to talk to him, but seungyoon had just ignored him whenever. actually he didn't even know why he had decided to go to the diner that day.

when he finally entered the place, his boyfriend was already there, sitting at one of the tables, looking as ethereal as ever.

slowly seungyoon sat across from him and remained quiet until the blonde broke their silence. "thank you for coming here today, i really wanted to talk to you."

"please do so then." seungyoon's voice was barely loud enough to be heard by taehyun.

"i just want to be honest with you, but i think that our relationship is purely toxic."

and seungyoon knew, that he was right, he could see it on both their worn out faces and yet he didn't want this to happen, even though he knew he could never give taehyun the love he deserved.
"so we're going to break up?"

"yes." after taking a deep breath taehyun continued. "as much as i love you and as much as it's going to hurt... being with you hurts me even more, so i think it will be better for both of us, especially since we both probably will find someone else."

"i'm sorry. for hurting you this much." seungyoon bit his lower lip painfully. "i knew i was hurting you, but still i refused to let you go."

"it'd be a lie to say that it's okay." the blonde boy's expression softened. "but let me tell you my honest opinion on the things, that i realized when being with you."

seungyoon just nodded, so he would continue, while the lump forming in his throat made it hard for him to breathe.

"kang seungyoon, you're a very complex person, who hides everything under a surface of smiles and kindness. i don't want to sound harsh, but you always gave me the feeling, that you live in the past of your happy highschool days."
he awkwardly ruffled his own hair. "but this life isn't highschool, you have to learn how to let go or cling to the people. there is no in between, especially not for us. i thought i could make you fall for me and it took me a while to realize, that you simply couldn't love me, because you are already in love with someone else."

meanwhile taehyun was talking, the other just lowered his eyes and tried to memorize every single word he said, since this was most likely the last minutes they would ever spend together.
"i don't think that you realize it, neither that you accept it, but one day you might do." with a soft smile taehyun got up from his chair. "as much as it hurts, i will let you go now. hopefully you will remember me, because i truly loved you."

before taehyun could leave the diner, seungyoon held him by his sleeve, looking into his eyes with the last energy he had. "and i am truly sorry for hurting you so many times... i guess it's really goodbye now."

"it is." whispered taehyun and left; this time irretrievably.

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it's fun writing this when i can do as much shit on the story as i want because there's no one besides one or two persons reading anyways XD
and this wasn't even sarcastic