i'm glad ; k.sy

022

one night seungyoon sat on the rooftop of the apartment building. actually the weather was too cold to sit up there at night, but that didn't matter to him anymore.

he had one earphone plugged in, listening to some calm music. his eyes wandered over the city lights; seungyoon watched them turn off one by one. but the city would never become completly dark.

it made him think of the old days, before everything had turned more and more complicated, before he had felt like he didn't even know himself.
that's when he realized, that taehyun had been right when he said, that seungyoon only lived in the past.

but what if the past is like an anchor, that keeps me from losing the hold on life?

suddenly there was a rustling noise next and when he turned his head, he found kyungmi, sitting down next to him and crossing her legs.

actually seungyoon didn't what to say or if he even wanted to say anything, so he just went on watching the city.

meanwhile kyungmi plugged in the other headphone and changed the song playing on his phone; it was their favourite song.

'imagine there's no heaven' sang john lennon 'it's easy if you try'

"yoon" kyungmi spoke barely loud enough for him to hear. "imagine the times when we were strong, when we felt as if we owned the world."

since seugyoon didn't reply, they remained quiet again until kyungmi spoke up again. "we can't stay like this, we need each other, like this we can't even live."

'you may say that i'm a dreamer, but i'm not the only one'

seungyoon wanted to cry about the song and what his best friend had said from the bottom of his heart, but then again he felt too numb to actually do.

"i think i have some things to explain... some things that i hoped, i would never have to explain to anyone." he mumbled. "it's a long story, but i hope you could listen and maybe understand why we were even arguing from my perspective."
this probably was the longest sentence he had spoken in weeks.

"we've been arguing for almost two months now, what's the point in not listening to you, of course i will listen." and after a moment she added "i just want you to be okay."

at this point seungyoon eventually shed some tears, but managed to hide it from his friend. "okay... this is actually really hard for me, but i already regret my whole life, why would this one more thing matter."