Future Diary 2: New Survival Game

Chapter 40: Confrontation

~~ Location: Void ~~

Adrift in a void of nothingness was a young man. He's been through so much since his creation at the hands of a certain god.

He made friends, but they were also enemies in a 'game' he was forced to play.

This game was a survival game, in many ways. However, the worst thing he went through… was the most recent incident; murdering his enemies, that were also his best friends at the time, by backstabbing them upon learning the outcomes of each player's choices if they won this 'game'.

The game was mentally, spiritually, psychologically, and physically demanding, yet simple at the same time; kill your unknown enemies who carry diaries that tell a specific type of future.

This young man, however, had the diary of protection. Ironic, that the last entry in his future diary was:

"XX:XX PM: Because of what I learned as the outcome to the 'game' I was created to be part of, I was forced to backstab my closest friends to stop this 'game' from repeating.

Should this 'game' repeat any number of times further, the world would collapse and implode in the next cycle…

…The 'cycle' refers to going back in time to restart the tournament all over again. Someone did this twice, and caused the time-space continuum to become unstable from repeated travels back in time to participate in this 'game' and change the outcome for the first winner.

Sadly, I was terrified at learning WHO that first winner was, and why that person wanted to repeat the 'game' over and over again…

…It's a shame that my time with these people had to come to an end so abruptly in the last segment of this terrible 'game'. Honestly, Yukiteru was an asshole; creating me to be the trump card in stopping that person from causing my home world from imploding in itself was the worst reason for my creation. If I was created to fight a war, then I would've gladly fought.

However, Deus did not tell me the real reason he created me. If I see him again, I'll be sure to get answers that I need… no, which I DESERVE…

On the bright side, I won this 'game', yet I am not happy about winning. As said before, I murdered my closest friends, and enemies in the game after backstabbing them when I learned part of the truth.

Was it because of desperation to survive that I backstabbed my friends? Was it because I felt obligated to act on Yuki's behalf?

I didn't understand why I killed them by destroying their diaries, but I am feeling an infinite amount of regret and guilt for this…

I won… and I should be happy, right? No, I'm sad and upset over learning the truth and what I did out of desperation.

Shit really hit the fan when moments before I did my friends in.

I can't take this anymore; I can't bear this guilt, but I can't just give up and kill myself. If anything, this 'game' has taught me to stand up for myself and avoid feelings of attachment to anyone I get close to.

I almost fell in love with one of the friends I made, but… that was just one of many reasons for my infinite regret and guilt.

It pains me to have to write this in a diary of dullness, but I failed my purpose and lost too much just moments ago. Yuki Ex Machina…

I have come to hate you so damn much for making me go through all this just for your grand gambit to combat your 'successor' from the first cycle. Using me as a throwaway pawn to get at that person is just despicable; why couldn't you have eliminated that person before starting this cycle?