An Adventure Of Life

Chapter twenty seven

~Michelle~

I haven't slept much during the flight. I maybe only fell asleep for like half an hour.

But we landed and there's a lot of fans.

"Hey. How you feeling?" Mikey asked.

"Can we talk about it when we get to the hotel?" I asked.

He nods and smiles.

After the guys take pictures we left to the hotel and I got my own room while the guys got 2 rooms for themselves.

I think Michael and Calum are sleeping together and Luke and Ashton.

I don't know.

While I was unpacking, Mikey came into my room.

"Now can we talk about it?" He asked.

Slowly I nod.

"Why didn't you tell us before that you had panic attacks? I mean I know you have breakdowns but I don't think you've ever had panic attacks." He said.

"I just didn't want to worry you guys anymore." I said quietly.

I sat on my bed and played with the sleeves of my sweater.

"I-I just don't think I can handle it." I whispered.

"Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't even be in this world. I-I...." I felt tears coming out of my eyes and I covered my face.

Mikey kneels down and grabs my hands.

"Hey hey hey. Don't you ever say that again Michelle. We all need you. We all love and care about you." He said.

I kept on crying and Mikey hugs me.

"I should get going. I need to see Julie's lawyer." I said.

"Please don't tell the rest of the guys. I wanna tell them on my own." I said.

"I won't. I promise." He said.

I sighed and wiped my tears.

"I'll see you later." He said.

He left my room and I sat on my bed before getting up and changing into Black joggers and a grey long sleeve. I left my grey converse on and put my hair up into a messy ponytail. I grabbed my glasses and bag and left to Luke's door.

I knocked and Luke opened.

"We're ready. Come on Ashton." He said.

I smile weakly and we get into the car and drove off to New Jersey.

I sat in the back while Ashton was driving and Luke was in the passenger seat.

I put my headphones in and blasted some Ed Sheeran music.

I wasn't in the mood today.

I curled up into a ball and felt tears coming out.

Why am I crying?

Is it because I'm going back to New Jersey or is it because I get to see Julie's house and all the things she left me?

I wiped my tears and decided to just take a nap.

~ Luke ~

"Have you noticed that Michelle is a bit off today?" I asked Ashton.

"Yeah. Something must've happened to her. She was fine when we were on the plane." Ashton said.