Fall for you ϟ hoodings

Chapter 31

[edited]

~|Ashton’s POV|~

What am I even doing in Luke’s room? I ran away from the moment, scared of what they’d think of me.

But why am I scared? Why am I afraid of what they’d think, when Calum and Luke are dating and gay for each other? I don’t even know what’s going on in my mind. I can’t control it.

I’m starting to sense, maybe I’m not ready for a proper relationship still. Maybe I need more time.

Michael has always been there. He’s always been there when Luke and Calum are doing whatever their doing together. Probably fucking.

But on a serious note, that was the first time I had ever kissed a boy, and to be 100 percent honest, I fucking enjoyed it.

But what should I do? I don’t know if I should come out. My lips get sealed together, making me unable to speak, which is shit in my opinion – however it had saved me a few times, but I ain’t bringing that up.

I don’t even know if I have feelings for Michael. What if in attracted to someone who’s already taken?

But I can’t be attracted to someone who’s already taken, because who is there to love? I don’t have feelings for Calum. I don’t have feelings for Luke. I don’t feel those sparks you’re meant to feel with someone you end up with. To be honest, I did enjoy the kiss with Michael, but I didn't feel the sparks. But does that really matter?

Right now, I’m too confused to think about any of this nonsense.

Minutes later, I had fallen into a deep slumber, not knowing what or who I'll be within the future. It kind of scares me.

~*~

“Don’t you think he’ll look so cute with mike? ‘Cause I do. I think he will,” I hear voices from across the hall say.

“I don’t know. He’s probably straight, and the way he reacted to that kiss, seems like a sign for us not to mention it until he’s ready,” the voice that came from Luke answered who clearly had to be Calum.

“Yes I know. But just...It’s hard to explain. I’ve been in his situation before. You changed me!” I hear Calum chuckle, along with Luke.

“And that’s a good thing.” was the last thing I heard from the voices, since they probably started making out.

It was silent for a while, and then I heard a thump. More like something – or someone crashing into the wall, which I’m assuming is Calum or Luke.

I sluggishly roll out of bed, with a slight headache, due to last night activities.

Making my way out of Luke’s room and down the hall, I am greeted by my assumptions.

Calum is pinned to a wall, with Luke literally sucking his face off. Will they ever take a break?

I awkwardly cough, making them instantly disconnect each other.

Luke bits his lip in embarrassment, still holding onto Calum’s hips.

Calum looks up at me, his face reddening. He looks down at the ground to hide his blush. Too late. Already saw it.

“Well...” Luke chuckles nervously, trying to start a conversation.

I ignore him, and walk past the both of them, into the kitchen to grab some breakfast.

I slip some bread in the toaster, and bring out the vegemite that’s hidden in the cupboard.