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~|Luke’s POV|~
It’s been one week since having that catch up at Ashton’s house. I only saw the boys twice.
I’m not sure what they’re doing, writing songs or shit, but I know what I’ve been doing.
Absolutely zip.
Nothing.
Nothing at all.
I’m staying in bed, sleeping in till 3 o’clock nearly every day. I’ve just been filling my face with food. Eating every minute.
I really don’t know what’s gotten into me. I’ve had really bizarre dreams too. To Calum loving me back, which I know would be impossible. But it was just a dream. Then to Calum hating me because of my sexuality.
I’ve thought about that hard these past days. Am I gay or not? Am I bi or not? Am I straight or not? And I’ve come to a decision, that I’m gay.
I don’t have any interest for girls at all.
I’m gay for Calum. He’ll never be gay though. But I just can’t seem to get what he said to me, out of my head. First he said, ‘my god’ after we kissed, then he said, ‘I’ve never felt like this before’
What is that supposed to mean?
I sat up on my bed, unlocking my phone to check if I have any messages from Calum, or anyone.
But nope. No one texted me at all. Maybe Calum hates me for not replying to his text a couple of days ago.
Bored, I flop back down on my bed, staring up at the ceiling. Why am I wasting my time on loving Calum, when I know he’ll never love me back? But it’s not that easy giving up on somebody that quickly.
His been my sunshine for a year. And I can’t give that up now. It’s been so long, and I’ve managed to keep this to myself. I really don’t know how I did it. But maybe it’s time to come out now. Before it’s too late? Because maybe If I admit my sexuality to them, Calum might...
Shut the fuck up Lucas! You don’t even know what your going on about.
It’s annoying, not knowing what to do with your life. I probably should call the other boys and ask if they want to catch up on some song writing, or if they want to get something to eat. They probably think in dead.
Not.
Who would think I’m dead? No one would care.
Lucas, stop being depressing. It’s not helping.
Not one bit.
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OMF!
This chapter is so short! I'm sorry
I had nothing in mind!:O
I think they should probably make a start on confessing their feelings or sexuality now. It’s already the 8th chapter.
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