The Internship

Chapter 23 - Sad Alex

Alex had seemed very off the last couple of days. I was too scared to ask what happened because of his recent outbursts. But whatever happened with him and that woman at the restaurant really tore him up.
"What happened to him?" Jill frowned as she eyed our boss.
He was dressed nice in his expensive clothes although that could only hide so much.
He looked like he hadn't slept in weeks. He also looked like his wife cheated on him, then left and took all his belongings and left his broken heart.
"What?" Alex snapped. His glare darkened when it reached me.
"Can I talk to you Mr. Harrison? Privately?" I asked. He hesitated his green eyes watching mine, trying to figure me out. There was desperation, loneliness and sadness in his eyes that he quickly masked. Only letting me see in for a moment. Alex sighed and nodded. He began to walk towards the elevator.
"Did you break up with him?" Jill whispered to me and I glared at her.
"Shut up jill I don't know what's wrong with him."
Jill broke off and walked down the hallway and I quickly followed Alex into the elevator.
There was one other person in there but it didn't help with the unsettling silence that filled the small space.
Alex held his green eyes on mine, intensifying as the floors went up making my knees go weak.
He was proving his was in charge. He was proving his dominance. He was proving his masculinity.
Because last night- last night he was weak and small.
We both knew that. The elevator halted at our floor and I let out a breath of relief.
He lead again as I trailed behind him, desperate to keep up with his long quick strides.
God he was bothersome.
He slammed the office door shut behind me and kissed me.
His hands were caressing my face as he pushed against me, desperately.
Passion and hunger were crazy with every move he made. He pushed me against the door without unlocking our lips. His hips digging into mine.
I pushed him off me with anger and lust. My face held surprise at first, that he kissed me. Then I was quick to fall into his little game. Swooning over every movement we made. Until realization hit me.
"Stop that!" I snarled at Alex who backed up a few steps.
"You lipstick is smudged." He pointed out, and invited himself to close our space and wipe it with his thumb. A smirk was present on his lips just pushing it in my face what he was doing to me.
"What is happening to you Alex?" I whispered, the nerves screaming at me. He glared at me, his green eyes still dark with lust, now annoyed and irritated.
"Nothing-"
"What is happening to you Alex?" I repeated myself.
He stared at me for a long moment.
"Do you have to ruin this moment?" Alex asked, his lips kissing my neck trying to distract me. I pushed him off me trying to ignore the feelings I get when his lips touch my skin.
"What is happening? You can tell me." His
"Mrs. Grant you-"
"What is happening to you? Alex?" I pushed.
"I-i don't know! Okay? I-I am on medication for my-fuck Amanda! Why are you asking such hard questions! I don't want you to know!" He walked around the room. His words rang in my ears.
"You've already seen so much. I-i don't want you to see any more. It's humiliating." He said quietly his cheeks turning red.
I walked up to him, pulled my arms around his neck and stood up on my toes so I was closer to eye level with him. I kissed him slowly, taking Alex by surprise.
"I'm here, I'm not going anywhere. You can tell me."
There was a long hesitation, Alex stared at the ground, his eyes sad.
"I can't. I want to but I can't. I-I'm so embarrassed I don't want you to witness it." He said his eyes adverting me.
I dropped my hands feeling frustrated. I was about to leave feeling angry that Alex couldn't tell me just that one thing.
That was until I saw the desperation reek through his emotions. Loneliness followed. I knew he wanted to tell me so bad. I knew that. And he was pushing himself so hard to do so.
I sighed and hugged him. Slowly he wrapped his arms around me, enclosing me in his sent. I closed my eyes basking in the feeling of his arms around me, of his pine tree smell on me.
"I'm scared." He said taking me by surprise. I didn't look up at him instead I kept my head resting on his chest.
"Of what?"
"What I'm going to do to myself. I'm scared of that."
I hugged him a little tighter.
"I won't let anything happen to you, don't worry." I mumbled.