The Lost Child

chapter 6

"But before you do anything crazy, let me tell you what happened..." I started, pulling her arm to sit down.

I told her everything. What I'd read in the diary, what Simon had told me about Beth. Even Phillip.. And how evil he turned to be. I couldn't trust anyone else. Ellie was my dearest friend. Her kind sweet eyes were enough to make me spit everything out. I felt better talking with her, like a heavy burden was finally off my shoulders. Her words.. They made me melt, they made me feel safe. Having a friend to tell her everything, to make me smile even in my darkest times.. She was the one.

"Oh dear! You had a sister?" She obviously hadn't known about her.

"I'm losing it ,Ellie.. As if the universe is plotting against me. Why is this happening to me? " I started to cry " Phillip... He left me, he broke my heart, he attacked my brother... I'm so terrified." I sobbed. Remembering our days together, our laughs ,our tears.. It all felt painful now. We were deeply in love for ten years. Every picture of us together popped to my mind. His soft words, his green eyes that made me feel always secured. Everything. For a moment I had everything..but now I have nothing. I wanted to scream out loud. I wanted to tear myself apart. I wanted to- I wanted to die. It was so painful..unbearable. The agony that flowed through my veins. My heart that almost stopped beating. And those thoughts fade away..and I see him again. I see him in my room, in my balcony. I see him in myself. I see him flying around me like a ghost. I hear his voice ringing in my ears like whispers. I imagine him back with me. Laughing and kissing my hand as usual. I wanted him back. I needed him..

But he's not Phillip anymore. He thought the three of us pushed him away but we were just protecting ourselves. In fact, we needed him around. Stephan was still broken. Simon still missed Beth.. And me, I was going insane.

"Miss, he hadn't given up on you.. He's not that bad I know it" she hugged me gently as she said. "Did you go see him?"

I shook my head.

"Okay get some sleep now and in the morning go visit him in the hospital then we can sneak the diary back when you're talking with The King" I nodded and wiped away my tears. She kissed my forehead and headed to the door. "Goodnight ,miss"

"Goodnight Ellie"

*
I woke up the next day, feeling a bit better. I rang my bell. Ellie rushed in quickly.

"Everything alright, miss?" She said softly.

"Oh yes I'm fine " I glanced at the diary "take this to where it belongs"

"Don't you want to read more?"

"No" I said it louder than I intended "I won't sneak for information like a thief! I'll confront him!"

"Sure ,miss" though I shouted, she was calm as an angel. "Shall I bring in your breakfast?"

"I'll go see Phillip first..." I jumped off bed. "Just get it ready till I'm back"

I ran down to the hospital wing not even changing my sleeping gown. Down the staircase when I noticed something red on the ceramic floor. I slowly walked to it and examined it. Droplets...blood. I followed the stripe of blood and behind the staircase. I screamed so hard and felt unconscious. A dead body! A dead body? How did it get here? Who? I turned around slowly, shaky. Phillip was standing behind me, his shirt ripped vigorously and his mouth bloodied. I looked in his devil eyes. Those eyes that were once the kindest eyes on earth. The gash in my heart became deeper... Phillip is that you? Is that the real you?

"What have you done?" I whispered with a crack in my voice.

"I still.. want you" he hardly made the words.