The Lost Child

chapter 8

*flashbacks *

I slowly opened my eyes with soft young cries. Newly born I was, everything seemed so vivid. Two familiar faces appeared before me, wrapping their arms around me. Two young boys jumped up on the bed, making my mother and me fly in the air. A beautiful girl joined them. She was as young as they were but quiet and sweet.

"Is that my new sister?" She tried to say with her young bad verbal language.

"Yes darling, she's Cornelia" dad said as he held her on his lap.

"Corn.. Corn ,she's corn" she sang my half name happily.

*another flashback*

Four years I was then. Sleeping in my bed ,knowing she was right there on her bed beside me. I opened one eye and peeked at her. She wasn't there. I popped up in fear but she was on my bed ,sleeping like an angel beside me. I kissed her cheek and slept on her shoulder, clinging to her arm.

*another flashback*

Every morning I woke up ,she was right there beside me. Christiana was newly born. I was so jealous another sister would share our room. Day after day. Year after year. Every time she was by my side. She was my sister ,my best friend and my life.

One day I rushed in the room ,crying so hard and telling her about Draco. He was in trouble when I almost drowned. Though he saved my life ,no one actually believed me. She said she'd help and I knew later from Simon that he was banished and not killed. It was a heartbreak for me , he was my best friend ..my only best fiend but at least he was alive .. I was thankful for that.

*end of flashbacks*

Not everything was back to my memories. All flashbacks were blur and I only saw parts of my life.

"I don't remember every detail .." I said to Simon, worried maybe the other memories were deleted.

"Yea that's normal. You'll get back most of your memories when the same things happen to you .." He explained. "Don't worry it's okay , you're okay " he hugged me so hard and all the stress decamped my body. It was like a huge burden was thrown off my shoulders. I was scared but with him around I wasn't any longer.

"We need to find them" I started ,letting him go. "We need to go back to th- "

"No" he yelled. " you are not using your powers again! You are not going back to the forest"

"Do you have another option?" I asked ,though I didn't need an answer. He didn't say anything. He frowned a bit , thinking. It looked like he was squeezing his brain for an idea. Using my powers again would arise the evilness inside me. I abandoned it. I wanted to live like a normal girl but everything around me was trying to rip out that desire from me. "Wait.. I know who can help!"

***

I saw a guard standing in the hallway. I ran to him.

"Is Phillip still here?" I asked. I guess kicking him out wasn't a great idea.

"You're highness" he bowed " you asked him to leave , he's packed already and he's almost at the main gate"

What?
No?
I need to stop him! 

I looked behind me. Simon gazed at me and I nodded. Go find Draco.

I drifted so fast which raised the guard's suspicions but I didn't care. I had to stop him. I ran down, sucking between breaths. My heart still wanted to ran to him but that's not why I need him. My brother was missing and my sisters as well. I had to step upon my wounded heart and bear that torturing pain while he was around. I slid down the staircase not even taking a breath. Come on I have to do it! I tripped down but quickly jumped up and continued. The guards saw me heading towards to main double doors ,they opened it for me. I drifted through them as the slowly opened. He was there..by the fence gate.

"Phillip ! Stop" I cried between my breaths, still running towards him. He froze and turned. He just stared at me. Was that anger I saw in his eyes? "No wait. Phillip please I need you" I wasn't pleading for him to come back....no definitely I was. He didn't stop. Okay I had to do it.. I stopped and gathered all my strength. I held my hands up high and screamed. He jumped around in fear but tried to run. Rope I said in my mind. Green semi transparent light rope was formed in my palms. I held it tight and threw its end towards him. It wrapped tight around his waist that he fell to the ground. I pulled it and he was hauled through the dirt. He was right before me now when I held him from his collar to stand. " I was calling you, were you deaf?"

"I heard you" he said , trying to be a little brave.

"Well you should follow my orders or I'll get you hanged!" I yelled with authority. I had to force him to help me.

"Really? The way you were calling me sounded like a beg actually" he tried to get me angry. Great! Now I'm angry. I threw him away, still tied with the rope I pulled him along as I walked. He collapsed to the ground. Dirt ran into his mouth as I hauled him and now he was begging me to stop. "Okay okay what do you want?"

"Find Christiana , Beth and Stephan"

"You kicked me out of your house and now you want my help." He said almost pissed off

I slapped him.

"Ugh fine!" He started "wait, who's Beth?"

"My sister"

"What?"

"Just find Stephan ,he'll be with her" I replied.

"Why do you need me? How can you still trust me?" His voice was so weak. It was pleading for me to stay ,to forgive. I couldn't get him out of him heart. He was a devil but ...he was an angel all my life. Can't I just forgive him? I knew all my life that his blood is combined with vampires' blood which would make him go evil most of the time. I wasn't even scared of him. Can I actually trust him ? He hurt Simon and he killed a person. How can I still trust him? I couldn't pretend all the time that I hated him.. Because I don't. I still loved him. I hadn't forgotten our years together, I still needed him. My heart was thumping, yelling at him because he hurt me but also crying for him to stay. I had to be stronger than this. I had to stop my heart. I didn't want it to feel his presence. I didn't want to still want him.

"I just need to find my family" I tried to hide my tears. My broken voice was calling him but I was strangling it "help me find them , they're all I got"

He accepted. I really wanted him to say no. I couldn't bear the pain. That gash in my heart that he'd caused was bleeding so much. I lost so much blood that I felt unconscious when he was around. He was digging in it deeper and one more dig and it will stop.. And I will die.