Mommy? (2)

Chapter 8

Emilie's P.O.V.

I was furious as I watched Leonora's sleeping form. She had ended up crying herself to sleep in my arms, and now she was lying on my lap, tear streaks on her cheeks and some lonely tears still falling from her closed eyes. She whimpered and I rubbed her stomach, whispering reassuring words. I didn't know what to do anymore. What could I do to save her from this. I had promise to always protect her no matter what, and yet, here I was, unable to do anything except hope.

Hope that all this would solve itself on its own. Hope that Leonora's sister would leave and let herself be forgotten. Hope that Leonora would be okay. Hope that she'd be safe. Hope that she'd go back to being her happy self. Hope that nothing would happen.

But was there really any point in hoping? Was there really any point in hoping for things that we wouldn't be able to change, that I wouldn't be able to change?

I sighed for the millionth time since Leonora had fallen asleep and wiped away her tears, and mine. At least I had come clear about my past, but she hadn't been able to, and it broke my heart to know that. I wanted her to be the happiest person ever, but I knew that she wouldn't be that happy until this problem was solved, no matter how hard I tried. As long as her past could haunt her, as long as she couldn't make a clean break with it, she wouldn't be happy, not completely. And that could only happen if her sister and the two guys were punished. I wanted, no I needed, them to be punished for what they had done to my love, to my baby. They had destroyed her emotionally and had given her bad memories. And for that they had to pay.

I couldn't believe that I hadn't noticed anything wrong before now. Sure, I knew that she had nightmares, and that she had PTSD, but I attributed it to her mother having abused her. It never crossed my mind that there might have been something more. And for that I hated myself. Had I known that something more was wrong, I'd have taken more precautions to protect Leonora. I'd have taken more precautions to make sure that no one could threaten her. Instead, I'd believed her when she'd said that the only problem from her childhood was her mother's abuse. I had believed her when she'd told me that her sister had died in an accident. What reason did I have not to believe her? None. I never thought she'd hide something as big from me. But then again, I had hidden from her the fact that I had had a brother. We were the same in the end. We both hid from each other the important things in our lives, we both tried to ignore and forget what had hurt us. I sighed again and stroked Leonora's hair.

I stayed there on the couch for hours, watching Leonora and reassuring her when I noticed that she was having a nightmare. I had texted Shania not to come, as she was sleeping, and she told me that she'd come in the morning with Hiroki. It was 2am when I got a text from Hiroki.

StupidPanda: how's Leonora?

Sleeping. Shouldn't you be sleeping too?

StupidPanda: yeah
StupidPanda: was worried about her tho

You don't need to worry. I'm watching her. Plus I can't sleep so I might as well stay up and make sure she's okay.

StupidPanda: sleep Em
StupidPanda: it won't help her if u don't
StupidPanda: ur just gonna be tired tmrw and grumpy

Em? Really? That's new. Where'd you get that nickname from?

StupidPanda: dunno
StupidPanda: mommy's up now
StupidPanda: gtg sleep

Night Hiroki

StupidPanda: gn Em ;)

I shook my head and texted Shania; I didn't want Hiroki to get in trouble for texting in the middle of the night, as I knew that he had already gotten in trouble for that, like Leonora.

Hey

AnnoyingUnicorn🤪: Hey there. Sorry about Hiroki texting you.

Don't worry about it. He just wanted to know how Leonora was doing. Please tell me that he isn't in trouble?

AnnoyingUnicorn🤪: Fine.... he isn't. But only because of the special circumstances. Anyways, I gotta make sure that's he's sleeping now, I'll see you in the morning😚

See ya 👋

I put my phone away and lied down, still holding my precious little girl.

How could such a beautiful person suffer so much?

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Hi there lovelies!😊

Here you go! A less emotional chapter after everything I've put you through, and before everything I'm gonna put you through. What did you think?

Fun fact 1: I've rewritten this chapter so many times before being even a tiny bit satisfied, and I'm still not completely satisfied by it.... and I've spent 2 and a half hours on it.

Fun fact 2: one of my friends' contact was StupidPanda for a while😂 he was being annoying so I decided to call him that😅😂

Fun fact 3: what the hell is actually this emoji: 🤪?? Like it's so weird, I don't even know what it's supposed to be. A crazy person?

Aaaaanyway, I'll let you enjoy your lives now.

Have a nice day/night/evening!💖