Small Nøtes {Jøsh Dun X Reader}

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Y'all this fic sucks so much, but I completed it and will start to update it daily. Sorry for disappearing, I just got out of a toxic friendship so yay pitty party for me but yeah sorry again.

I wake up and roll out of bed. Today I'm supposed to play with Sally. I put on whatever lay around my room and go downstairs. Sally and my dad are sitting at the table, slowly eating breakfast. I sit down next to Sally not even bothering to get food. After a bit, my dad notices that I'm here and looks up. "You're supposed to eat breakfast." He growls. I roll my eyes. "I don't do what I'm supposed to do. Anyway, when Sally's done eating we're gonna go to the park. Is that okay with you?" I can smell the alcohol leaking off of his clothing.

His lips form a thin line. "As long as Sally doesn't get hurt, it's fine by me." He grumbles. "I'm done," Sally whispers. I smile at her and grab her hand. We walk out of the house into the blazing sunlight. "So, how's school?" I ask out of reflex. She huffs. "I don't understand why you don't have to go but I do." She pouts. "Well, that's because you need to get terrific grades! Someone is coming to help me out tomorrow." I smile. "Oh, who?" She asks, curiously. I chuckle. "You don't know him, but between you and me... he's pretty hot," I whisper the last part. She gasps and covers her mouth with both of her hands. "Is he your boyfriend?" She whispers, looking around.

I blush. "Of course not! Just a friend." I shrug. Once we get to the park Sally immediately runs to the swings. I chuckle as I watch her happily swing back and forth. I sit down on a bench and scroll through my phone. There are a few texts from my friends asking how I'm doing, I ignore them all. I decide to write about how I feel. I go into the notes app and tap away.

Small notes:

My heart is crumbling beneath me. I could pick up the pieces and glue them back together but it's a waste of time. This boy. This boy named Joshua Dun. Has somehow stolen the pieces. I would chase after him but it's a waste of my time. I miss him, I barely know him. Tyler can be a real jerk. Making him and me acquaintances. I've liked him ever since I laid eyes on him. He was my first crush. We actually met in fifth grade during Tyler's birthday party. I fell and he laughed at me.

I cried to my mommy. Pang. I felt a pang in my heart when I mentioned her. Sad, isn't it? Josh never did anything to help me up. He actually bullied me until we were freshman. After that, things mellowed out. He acted like it never happened. Like he never pushed me up against a wall. Like he never forced me to scream his name. Like he never made me deal with the pain.

I slam my notebook shut when someone sits down next to me. I look over to see who it is, then immediately turn my head the other way. "Hey, how's it going?" He asks. "Um, good." I whisper. "Don't worry, I didn't see what you were writing." He shrugs. I let out a sigh. "So... I can go over your missed assignments if you want?" He points to his backpack. "Okay," I mutter. He reaches into his backpack and pulls out a bunch of papers, some of which are crumpled up. He hands them to me and then grabs a pencil. After passing that over, as well, he starts to explain how to complete my math homework.