o h d e a r
am i dreaming?
am i back to my own delusional phase?
why, why, my love.
i thought you saved me-
"avery! what are you doing!!"
"i want to go back home.."
"but you are in your room.. what are you saying?"
"home isn't near from here- home is somewhere up there, gabe.. i want to go back."
"... i thought i saved you."
but that was the problem dear gabe, you did save me.
but you didn't heal me.
"you did...."
"why are you doing this to yourself, avery. i thought we were all done with this stage- heck, i thought you stopped.. please, don't leave me."
".......hey, gabe.."
".. what?"
"did i ever told you that i love every single thing about you? your eyes, their shine.. your thoughts, so deep and wonderful- nobody could ever guess... but i'm not a fool, gabe."
"avery, i-"
"i know you're going to fade away- i'm affirmative. i'm not blind, i'm not crazy. wait, yes i think i am in a way, crazy.. so please-"
"what the hell are you talking about avery?!"
"will you just leave me alone so i could feel better?! i'm taking all the medicine and pills i have to but- why the hell are you still here?!"
"av-.... what medicines and pills?"
"my god, can't you see maximus? i love you but it hurts to know you're not real! i'm dying here, and now you keep on appearing and breaking my heart each time you say something sweet and amazing... it makes me miss you more and now i feel horrible!!"
yes, that's true my love.
i know you're nothing but one of the monsters that were once inside me, now turning and seeming realistic.
why are you doing this my love?
why can't you heal me already?!
no no, i know why..
because in the end, oh dear, you were my sickness in the first place.
Delusionally,
The girl with a mental sickness.
YOU ARE READING
Oh dear
Puisi"maybe it was you and i, not we and us." in which she falls inlove, and she gets tricked by the illusions and thoughts of it. one sick delusional story, without true love.
