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Chapter 12: Scared

~Lauren~

I'm not going to tell her.

Hell to the fucking no.

"I just got drunk was all, went out partying and had a great time. That's all." I say to her, looking her in the eyes because they say that if you don't look at the person in the eye, it means your lying.

Well I was lying, I just didn't want her to know.

She didn't even believe me.

"Laur-" I push her away from me and ran to the nearest bathroom, closing and locking the door behind me. I lean my back against the door as Demi pounds on the door.

"Lauren! Let me in! I wanna help you!" She says and I sigh, closing my eyes.

"You won't believe me Demi, no one has believed me. No one is listening to me." I say and walk over to the tub before sitting inside of it.

"I'll listen to you! You know I'll always listen to you and believe you! Believe in me Lo!" She says and I shook my head. I threw a leg over the rim and cross my arms, my head leaning against the wall. I heard Demi slide down against the door and sits on the floor, she sighs.

"Let me in? Please?" She says and I shook my head, remembering that she doesn't see me so I stayed quiet.

I soon heard her take her phone out before texting someone then putting it away again. "I texted the girls to get their asses over here, Lauren we want to help you but we can't if you don't let us in." She says and I bit my lip, tears started to welled up in my eyes.

"I'm just scared, and I want someone to believe me." I whisper quietly and I think she heard me.

"We're all scared of something baby girl, I believe you." She says and I close my eyes.

I started to sing, singing always shows someone's emotions.

And this song, for some reason shows what I'm feeling right now.

"You trembled like you'd seen a ghost
And I gave in
I lacked the things you need the most,
You said where have you been?

You wasted all that sweetness to run and hide
I wonder why
I remind you of the days you poured your heart into
But you never tried

I've fallen from grace
Took a blow to my face
I've loved and I've lost
I've loved and I've lost

Explosions...on the day you wake up
Needing somebody and you've learned
It's okay to be afraid
But it will never be the same
It will never be the same..."

I'm a god damn grenade, if they keep looking and pushing and shoving for answers, I'm gonna do something I'll regret.

I finished singing and I heard people leaned against the bathroom door.

"Nothing will ever be the same after this," I whisper softly, my hands curling up into fists. My nails digging into my palms, my skin cuts a little and turn bright pink or a little red.

Small specks of blood came out, but at the moment I really don't give two shits about it.

"Lauren?" I heard Ally soft voice says and tears started to stream down my face.

"Come out, please? We want to help you." Camila whispers and I shook my head.

"No," I say hoarse. "I'm fine." And curled up in a ball, bringing my legs to my chest and wrapping my arms around them. I laid in the bath tub, crying quietly.