A Heart Divided

Chapter 4

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           It was as if all the blood in my face had rushed out, leaving me like a person who just died, cold and empty. My heart was pumping hard and fast. His words caused me pain. I just couldn't believe what he just said. He's my best friend.....why won't he help me? I look at Onew's eyes, filled with anger, but for some reason I saw some sadness.....why did he look sad? Why was he even mad? I don't get it.

“But....why not?”

“Because he's a player”

“What?! No he's not!” I start getting louder, “You even said he was a good guy!”

“You've seen him!! The way he is with all the girls! Sure he’s a good guy, but he doesn’t have the right motives when it comes to girls!!"

I’m frustrated.

“What the hell does that even mean!!!? And he's just being nice to them!"

“NO! HE’S TOYING WITH THEM!!!!” His voice echoed through the empty and soundless street.

Ugggg!!! Onew is getting me so mad!

“Fine! Forget it! I'll get one of my other friends to help me!”

“HA!  Another friend!? What friend!? You only have me!” He says while pounding his chest with his hand.

“I have other friends OK!!!!” Who does he think he is!?

“Oh really? Ok then tell me their names.”

             Crap! I actually don't have any other friends, I've only been by Onew's side since we first met, he’s the only person I have ever been comfortable with, so no, I never bothered making friends with anyone else. Why did I say that I had friends without thinking! Idiot, so I lie and just randomly say the names of girls I last talked to.

“There's.....Tiffany! She sits next to me in art class and Rachael who I partner up with in gym!”

“HA!!  You mean those sluts that are always throwing themselves on top of Jonghyun!? Yea go ahead! Ask them for help! Tell me how that works out for you.”

“FORGET I EVEN ASKED!! I don't need anyone's help! I'll do this on my own then!”

I was so mad, I couldn’t look at him any more. I gave my back to Onew and started waking away.

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          I barely got four steps away from him, until Onew grabbed me by my arm and turned me to face him again. I was so mad at him that I pulled my arm away from him. Onew looked at me with tender eyes, and with his soft honey voice he said, “Please...just please don’t….don't go to him. Not everyone thinks as innocently as you. Jonghyun's mind isn't innocent like yours,”

My voice begins to shake, “But....I really like him, and I really thing he likes me back.”

         Onew holds my shoulders gently as he leans closer to my face to make exact eye contact with me, and starts to whisper softly again with his honey voice, “Sara... you’re beautiful...of course he's going to like you, but it's only going to be for a while. Once he gets what he wants from you, he's going to leave and move on to the next girl.”

I can feel my throat chocking up as I say, “Then help me please so that he doesn't stop liking me.”

Onew shuts his eyes very tightly, takes in a deep breath, let's it out heavily with a shaking sigh and says, “I just can't... I can't help you be with him.”

“But you’re my best friend.”

          It was as if the words 'best friend' triggered a burning flame of anger in Onew's eyes. His grip on my shoulders got tighter, his eyes looked crazed with anger, and his sweet voice got angry and loud.

“IS THAT ALL I'M EVER GOING TO BE FOR YOU!? YOUR FRIEND!? Is the day when you see me differently ever going to come?! WHEN?! When are you going to see me differently? I could be so much more for you, AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!”

Onew's eyes widen as he let's go of my shoulders. He looks around and then looks back at me as if he couldn't believe what he just said.

I stare at Onew as he tries to figure out what just happened and what he should say next.

         I don't even understand what just happened, what does he mean by more than just a friend? Onew has never said anything like this before. Could he possibly….

“Onew....do you like me?”

Onew bites his lower lip and looks at me and says, “Yes. I like you...”