A Heart Divided

Chapter 9

               We're walking along the sides of the school gates. Our pace is slow... and quiet... It feels really awkward for me but Jonghyun looks completely relaxed next to me.

“You know...I really DID mean those words that I said back then,” he says as he brings his hand closer to mine.

I blink my eyes three times at his words and I pull my hands together so they can hold each other. I stay looking at the ground.

“I do feel lonely if you’re not next to me...” The tone in his voice sounds serious as he speaks.

“And when your not next to me, all I can do is think about you...and I think about you constantly....every day since I first saw you.”

I look up shocked at his words. They just sound to good to be true. Does he really think about me? I become worry of his words and say, “But you only met me this month”

Jonghyun looks at me with his head slightly cocked sideways and a small pout, and he finally says with a sigh, “Yea....but that's only because I never found the right opportunity to talk to you before.”

“Why not?”

Jonghyun chuckles slightly and says, “You were always next to Onew.”

I bring my head down so Jonghyun won't see that even the mention of Onew's name makes me sad. But Jonghyun still noticed it anyways.

“You don't believe me do you?” He says with a disappointed tone in his voice.

“Well… It’s just….I'm not good at telling how a person really feels....I’ve realized that I don’t always see a persons true feelings, so I wouldn’t really know how you truly feel,”  I say as I look up at him to examine his face.

Jonghyun stays quiet and still for a while, but then he starts to chuckle slightly as he turns his head to me and says, “Well that’s why I’m telling you. You don’t have to figure it out. You just have to listen to my words. Sara I like you.”

I bite my bottom lip hard to stop my face from turning into the color of a red tomato. I look up to see Jonghyun staring at my lips while he slightly bites his, he looks up at my eyes and quickly lets go of his lip as he blinks his eyes hard. That was weird.

I finally open my nervous mouth and say, “When is it that you started liking me?”

Jonghyun scratches the back of his head and says, “Oh…..I never told you why I was smiling when I ate those cookies last night, right?”

“Hmm? Oh no,” I say as I cock my head sideways.

He avoided my question.

He smiles at me and says, “They reminded me of you...”

I look at him confused, “Really? How come?”

His voice becomes exited as he hays, “Well it's simple. When you ate them how were they?”

I look at him still confused but answer anyways, “They were really sweet, and soft.

“Mhhmm,” Jonghyun nods his head and continues, “How about your mood?”

I look up to the sky as I try to recall, “Well I was feeling a little down before, but after eating them my mood went up again. They were really tasty~”

“Exactly! Those cookies in specific made you feel better right?!”

Well not exactly. I just really like sweets. But I don’t tell him that. He looks wayyy too exited about the cookies. It’s kinda cute~.

“But I still don't get it, why would they remind you of me?”

Jonghyun sighs and says, “Because Sara, that's how you are too me,” He stops walking and pulls my hand also making me stop. “Just like the cookies, you’re soft and sweet, and you make me smile every time I see you or think of you. The same way you’re mood got better, mines also gets better when I’m with you.”

“Jonghyun…” I say while looking at his face. He looks gentle and kind, and his words sound sincere as they reach my heart, making me fall for him even more with every word. His hands are warm against my hands that are always cold.

“Sara… Will you go out with me? Be my girlfriend?” He says as he pulls me by my hand closer to his body. I look at his warm tender dark brown, almost black eyes. I feel my heart drop at the words that I wanted to hear since the first time I saw him. This must be a dream. I look around to find a sign to tell me that this isn’t a dream…. And I find one.

I can see Onew clearly as he walks in the direction opposite of us. He didn’t even notice us. Instead he laughs with the same pretty unnie that he’s with. I look slowly back at Jonghyun as he waits for an answer.

I realize now that Onew has definitely left me and has moved on to something better. The man that once was my best friend and prince charming has turned my heart into a bitter and lonely cold heart, freezing as every day passes by. But the man in front of me right now, in this instant, has given me the warmth my heart needs as it brings me back to life.

“Sara?” Jonghyun whispers to me. In my eyes he appears like a shining light, like my salvation from this lonely world. Onew moved on…. So should I.

“Yes, I would really like to be your girlfriend,” I say awkwardly, and shy as I swallow down my nervousness. It’s the first time I ever had that asked to me, so my response wasn’t as calm or natural.

Jonghyun’s eyes slightly widen, but then a smirk appears in his lips as he starts to move his lips closer to mine.

Ohmygod? Is this going to be my first kiss? Nooo.

I quickly look down, not because I don’t want it, but because I don’t know what to do. I’ve never kissed any one before, what if I’m not good?

I feel Jonghyun’s arms wrap around me pulling me closer to his chest. I feel comforted inside his warm grasp. His heart beat is slow and calm, while mines races to break through my chest. But my heart seems to start adjusting to his, as it slows down and starts to match his heart pace.

Jonghyun sighs and says, “It’s ok, don’t be nervous. I’ll take care of you.”

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hello~ just to let you know;

a NEW character will debut on the next chapter ↖(^▽^)↗

also, next chapter will feature Onew's first POV!! (point of view)

ok Yea.

and Mr. Jonghyun IT'S RUDE TO AVOID PEOPLE'S QUESTIONS HMMMMM

-nm