A Heart Divided

Chapter 11

        I try to look up at him and he pulls me out of the strong embrace, just enough so he can lean in closer to my face again. This time I stay still as my heart flutters. I close my eyes as his lips gently land on mine.

This is my first kiss.

        My heart races as his lips stay on mine, but the feeling is different from what I thought it would be. His lips are warm, and have a nice soft sensation that makes my heart flutter…but it feels a little empty.

Maybe it’s because I’m un-experienced.

Jonghyun, parts our kiss as he holds my face in his two hands. He looks into my eyes closely and smiles.

We are now officially going out…..I have my first boyfriend.

“Lets go,” Jonghyun says as he pulls my by my waist close to him and starts to walk, the way a lot of couples walk.

“Go where?” I ask as I walk uncomfortable because of the way we’re walking so close.

“You’re my girl now! I need to buy you something to celebrate! What would you like, a new dress? Jewelry? Shoes?”

“What!? I don’t need any of that! Please don’t burden yourself with getting me those things” I say embarrassed at his offer.

Jonghyun laughs and squeezes me tighter at the waist, still walking.

“Ok fine, how about something to eat? I never got you that hot drink I promised you. How about I treat you to hot chocolate and deserts,” Jonghyun says with an eye smile.

“Ok that sounds simpler.” I bite my lower lip embarrassed as I say, “Umm, Jonghyun, can you please let go of me as we walk, I find it a little bit difficult to walk this close.”

He looks at me confused, but then looks at his own hand as they tightly hold on to my waist and lets go

“Oh sorry, I’m just so used to-” he stops talking in the middle of his sentence and opens his eyes wide as if he was about to say something he shouldn’t and would get in trouble for it.

            Out of curiosity I ask’ “used to what?” He looks at me flustered and loudly and quickly says, “AH, never mind it’s not relevant, Oh! Let’s go to this new bakery that opened up close by. I always wanted to go because the desserts looked really tasty, but since the place is crowded with couples I never wanted to go alone,”

“Oh I see you’re going to use me as your girlfriend to get tasty treats you can’t get by your self,” I say teasingly trying to make a joke. Jonghyun gets the joke and responds, “Yes, I’m going to use you to get a lot of tasty things.”

His words brought a chill down my spine…Why?

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;one month later;

“Sara~ bunny~” I can hear him calling me from behind as I walk over to my next class.

I wish he wasn’t so loud. I know Jonghyun and I are publicly dating now, but does he really have to advertise it every time he sees me?

          I feel like I can’t walk around anywhere without having stares of hate and envy drilled through my face by girls who used to swarm all around Jonghyun. My body is constantly being looked up and down, and examined in pervert-ish ways by guys who never once noticed me before.

'It’s her…. Do you think they did it?....'

'It’s Jonghyun, of course they did!….isn’t she to plain?....'

'what~ that’s nonsense, she’s totally cute'

I hear whispers like that being carried around in the hallway air everywhere I go…….the problem is, what do they mean by if we “did it”?.....did what?!

Ughh! This is so frustrating! I don’t know what they mean!

Kissed?

Yea we kissed, but is that what they are talking about?

“Sara~ bunny~ honey~” Jonghyun grabs me by my waist and kisses me on the cheek. As the days pass and the more we are together, the more Jonghyun grabs me, hugs me and kisses me. I like the feeling it gives me, but I’m still a little uncomfortable, but I just suck it up. After all, it’s something all couples do, kiss and hug. I shouldn’t take that away from Jonghyun, right?

“How’s my beautiful lady doing?” he asks as he runs his fingers through my hair pushing it back away from my face.

“Hardly beautiful but I’m fine,” I say while looking down and a little bashful by his words.  Jonghyun lifts my chin up and kisses me lightly on my lips. This causes me to look around quickly and cover my cheeks from embarrassment.

Jonghyun chuckles and says, “You really do look the cutest when you blush, it really makes me go crazy,” he grabs me again and devours me in a tight hug.

            He always says that the things I do make him go crazy, but the truth is, his actions make me go crazy. He’s always so cute and he always knows what to say to make me feel better.

The second bell for class rings, telling me to get into class.

“Meet me at the school gates after school. Now hurry! Before the teacher notices that you’re late!” Jonghyun says as he pushes me in the direction of my class. I giggle and say smiling, “you too! Don’t be too late to class.”

Jonghyun gives me an eye smile, wave’s goodbye and starts to walk to his class.

-Onew’s POV-

I hate school.

            I haven’t been coming to school as much as before. Not since she started dating. I hate couples. I hate romance. I hate feelings. I hate Jonghyun. I hate her…..no…I don’t hate her. I try to hate her, so I won’t be able to feel anything for her, but all my trying is useless. I can’t forget her.

I wonder if she hates me. I hope she does. It’s better that way.

Only two more classes and I can go home, and continue my miserable life.

“Sara~ bunny~”

            UGH! His voice irks my ears. I look up to see Jonghyun grabbing Sara from behind and giving her a kiss on the cheek. I quickly hide behind one of the school pillars. Thank goodness they are wide enough to hide me……..wait….why am I hiding? Oh yea, I’m pathetic. I don’t want her to see me.

“BOO!”

My eyes widen in surprise and I feel my heart jump out of my chest. I turn my head to see a laughing Hyosung in front of me, pleased with my startled reaction.

“Oppa what are you doing here? Why aren’t you going to class?” she asks smiling while trying to look past my shoulders. I push my chest out and expand my shoulders as I try to block Hyosung’s view of Sara and Jonghyun. I don’t want her to see them because then she starts scolding me for all the things I’m doing wrong.

“Yo! Why are you hiding from them!” she yells at me.

*sigh* Let her scolding begin.

{to be continued}

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hihi~

well if you haven't noticed by now Sara is sooooo incredibly innocent.

like a 10 year old could know more then her about what "doing it" means lol

ahhh so innocent my little Sara u.u

-nm