Heartless Misery

Chapter 20

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Valerie's POV

After days of crying into my pillow, I am still not finished. Heartbreak hurts. I am in my bedroom, lights off, curtains closed, door locked, the room smells yuck and i feel crap. School is going to be so hard on Monday. It's my first day of school after a few days, I couldn't bring myself to go. I would have to face my fears, face Harry, face the entire school who now thinks I have done something I didn't. 

There was a knock on the door and I opened it to have 5 girls tumble onto the ground. "Um, hi guys, what are you doing on the floor?" I asked, holding back a chuckle. I hadn't had a good laugh in a long time, and I felt the only person who could change that was Harry. Harry.....Tears welled up in my eyes at the thought of him. He was perfect and amazing and I lost him for a stupid reason. Why didn't he believe me? I mean, I guess I wouldn't have believed myself either, but I love him. I love him so much.

They stood up and dusted themselves off. "Uh, um we were just thinking of coming over to cheer you up a bit, you know, the good old sappy movie and junk food." Isha said. The girls all nodded in sync and I smiled, but I knew it didn't reach my eyes. I guess they saw it too because they gave me a sympathetic look and began to get the room ready. There were pillows flying everywhere and the strong aroma of popcorn filled the air. I sighed. "So, what movie are we watching?" I asked. They looked at the DVD's. "Um...Love Actually" Lauren said. Oh no..I started to cry. I cried and cried till there were no tears and I was left whimpering. "Whats wrong?" Niki asked whilst hugging me. 

"It's....Just....It's..H-Harry's F-favourite movie!" I whimpered. They looked at eachother before throwing the DVD away. "Ok then, we'll watch the notebook." They said. I nodded and began to wipe my tears. This is going to be a very long heartbreak...I just want to mend my broken heart.

Harry's POV

"Yeah Michaela thanks for the talk, I feel much better thanks again. Bye!" I said into the phone. I groaned and placed my head in my hands. She talks way too much. I thought to myself. But she was being really nice, and I guess I should be thankful for her to talk to. The guys haven't been too great lately. Niall's been going to see Valerie and said she was a mess. Little does she know that I'm a mess too. I'm a freaking mess! I cry everyday and every night. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't want to have to face her. She's been away the whole week and I am starting to worry for her. Truth is, I want her back. I want her to be mine, to hug her and to hold her and to call her beautiful. Why did I screw this up? I mean, if she said she didn't do it, I should have believed her. But no, I have to be the stubborn one who declared the break up. 

*****Next Day******

Valerie's POV

"Val, wake up, time for school!" My aunt yelled up the stairs. I groaned and tumbled out, heading straight for the shower. I applied some make up to hide my red, puffy face and walked out the door. I walked to school and trudged through the gates. I have no classes with Harry today, thank god! I don't know how I would face him. He was probably so angry he would yell at me or something.

My first class was boring....I was daydreaming the whole day, picturing Harry and I fixing our problems and being what we used to. It brought a tear to my eye. 

That's it. I've decided. I'm going to approach Harry, I will approach him and apologise and tell him that I don't know who the guy was. I will speak the truth and hope that he takes me back. 

I walked towards Harry's locker and the sight I saw made my heart shatter to pieces all over again. Harry was kissing Michaela....wait let me re-phrase that, Harry was having a full on snog session with Michaela! "Oh my god!" I muttered. As he turned to look at me, I spun on my heel and ran, I ran towards the toilets. I had an urge and I was going to give in. I know I haven't done it in a long time, and I shouldn't do it now, but the depression was too strong. I fumbled through my back until I came upon my razor. Slowly, I picked it up and held it against my scarred skin. Here goes. 

The pain was torturous! I cried from pain and heartbreak. Blood seeped through but I washed it off and covered it up with a bandaid to stop it from bleeding. I felt a little better, but no so much that it would stop me. I walked out of the bathroom and to my next class, hopefully no one notices what I've done.

Harry's POV

I was at my locker when I heard a voice. "Hey Haz." I turned around, disappointed to see Michaela in front of me. She ran her fingers up my top and I gulped. Dumb hormones! I pried her off me. "What are you doing?" I questioned her. She shrugged. "I really like you Harry, I wanna have a relationship with you." and with that she planted her lips on mine. They were nice and I can't say I didn't enjoy the kiss, but it was nothing like Val's. Hers were soft and full of love, whereas Michaela was all lust. 

Maybe this is what I needed, maybe I needed Michaela to help me get over Valerie. I pulled away and smiled. 

"Michaela, will you be my girlfriend?" 

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OMG! Do u know how hard it is to write sad chapters!? I almost cried. I feel the heartbreak and I want them to get together as soon as possible...but unfortunately that can't happen :(  and poor Val, cutting again! Thank you to Meganrose15 for the great idea! 

so... what do u guys think of Michaela?