Heartless Misery

Chapter 22

Hey guys! Its the last day of term!! whoop whoop!! haha I hope you enjoy this chapter!! :)

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Valerie's POV

It comes to a point where you love someone so much, that even though it hurts a lot to stay, you keep holding on....because you can always let go of the pain, but never the little happiness you get out of loving that person. 

The pain is too much. Just watching them kiss and hold hands makes me want to throw up. I have considered dropping out of school for a while, but my aunt won't let me. She has no idea that I have lost the love of my life and I can't be strong without him. Harry means so much to me and he has no idea how much he has hurt me by being with her. The worst part is that every time I catch his eye, he will just avert his gaze. He isn't even going to attempt a friendship. I sighed and picked at my lunch. This is absolute torture. Obviously the person who came up with the saying sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me never heard the words it's over. Those two words were the break in me. They took away all of my sociability and any happiness I once contained. Now my hobbies were being depressed and locking myself in my room all day long. 

"Val, this is not healthy! You can't keep going on like this!" Isha said sternly as she eyed me picking my food. I shrugged. "I am like this now, healthy or not its how I am." I replied. She gave me her signature look of disapproval and continued her lunch. I groaned as Harry and Micheala walked in holding hands. I instantly had the urge to cut, but I ignored it for a few moments so it won't look too obvious that their presence disturbed me. I stood up and made my way to the bathroom and fulfilled my purposes. 

Harry's POV

"Harry! Come this way!" Michaela ordered. I looked at her. "Actually, I was gonna go sit with my friends." I said. She looked at me sternly. "No, you are going to sit with me. we are a couple now and you should have all your time directed on me." She said harshly. I rolled my eyes but obeyed. I feel as though I am her little puppet that she can do whatever she wants with. I won't stand for it. I cleared my throat. "Um, I have to go to the bathroom." I said eagerly. She nodded and I felt her eyes burning holes into my back. I need to get away. I thought to myself as I turned a corner. 

I was walking down the corridor when I heard voices and then my name was mentioned. I hid behind a pole to hear better. "Haha I can't believe Harry actually fell for that! I mean, you could so tell that the picture was photo shopped! And when she got Bruce to go up and kiss Valerie! The look on the poor girls face was priceless. Michaela can be quite evil. It was a good plan though!" I heard one of them say. "And now poor Harry has to sit there and take orders from her! I feel so sorry for Val, I don't think I want to hang out with Michaela anymore." The other one said. My mouth was open in shock. Michaela set me up, she set Val up. She broke us up! Oh my god! I feel so stupid! How could I have fallen for that, I know how mean and horrible Michaela is! I have to fix this. 

I stormed back to the cafeteria and approached Michaela. I think she noticed the look on my face because concern instantly washed over hers. "I can't believe you did that! You are a horrible person. You can't just break two people up for your own needs Michaela! We were in love! Me and Val were in love! I still love her, I always have and I have been freaking miserable every single day because I can't call her mine! This is all your fault. Just for the record, We're over!" I yelled and stormed towards  Val's friends who looked at me with shocked expressions. My face softened. "Where's Val?" I asked quickly. They told me she was in the bathroom. Without thinking, I sprinted into the girls bathrooms. Yes, I know its the wrong thing to do, but It's so worth it. I heard crying in one of the cubicles. I knew it was Val straight away. "Val? Val I need to talk to you." I said hopefully. She didn't reply and I heard some sniffling. "If you don't come out I'm gonna crawl under!" I teased. She didn't reply. "OK, here I come..." I said and dragged myself under the door. She gasped when she saw me and then tried to cover her hand, which I noticed had blood all over it. Shock overcame me. "Oh my god, Val what happened!" I asked, She tucked her arm further away from me but I used my quick reflexes and grabbed her arm softly but tugging on it enough to bring it towards me. Realisation registered on my face when I saw the red marks on her wrist. They were fresh...and one had an open wound. Tears welled up in my eyes. "Oh my god, Val why-why did you do this?" I asked her. She refused to look at me so I pulled her chin up. "why?" I asked again softly. She shrugged. "I used to cut when I was younger and I got treatment for my depression...but when we broke up, it was too much. The pain and depression got to me and I began to cut." She whispered. Tears streamed down my face. It was my fault! My fault that she cut and that she was miserable. I looked her in the eyes. I couldn't take the urge any longer. I Lent forward and kissed her passionately. She seemed shocked for a moment but soon warmed up to my lips and began to kiss back. 

Valerie's POV

This was so embarrassing... I was telling him about how I used to cut. He will be ashamed of me. He'll never wanna speak to me again! I was knocked out of my thoughts when his lips smashed onto mine. I regained confidence after being shocked for a moment and began to kiss back. Oh how I've missed this. The butterflies returned and I wrapped my arms around his neck. Everything disappeared and it was just Harry and I. He slowly bit on my lower lip and sucked before letting it go and licking it, begging for entrance. I granted it and our tongues fought for dominance. Wait! He's with Michaela now....he can't and shouldn't be kissing me! I pushed him away, both breathing heavily. "You are dating Michaela remember?" I reminded him. He shook his head and chuckled. "Not anymore." He relied. I gave him a confused look and he explained the whole story. It brought tears to my eyes. "Most importantly, I have to tell you that I never stopped loving you. I was miserable and I couldn't forget you. Every kiss with her was compared with yours. She is nothing like you. You are perfect and amazing. I love you Val." He said. I smiled through tears. "I love you too Harry. So so much!" I chuckled, wrapping him in a tight hug. "Can't....Breathe!" He teased. I laughed and then realised I still had blood oozing from my wound. I stood up and ran out of the cubicle to the sink where my bag was. I took out some band aids and placed them carefully on my wrist. I knew I would have fresh scars once again but I wouldn't dare to worry about that now. All i have to do is remember to stop cutting. It was like smoking. You could stop, but the urge to do it was too strong. I know I will have Harry to help me every step of the way. Which brought a thought to my mind. "Um, Harry...what are we now?" I asked, unsure. He looked at me and smiled "Well, miss grace...would you care to be my girlfriend?" He asked. I nodded and laughed. He pulled me into another passionate kiss and we made our way to the cafeteria again. 

Micheala's POV

"Oh and for the record. We're Over!" Those words repeated themselves over and over in my head. They stung, and I felt my heart crack. I was not easily heartbroken or hurt, but this really  devastated me. Harry was gone. Once again I have lost the one I love. First it was Daniel, and now Harry. Daniel was my first ever love. He was everything to me, as I was to him, we were happy. Until one day another girl came into his life, and he made her more important. He left me. He used those words. "It's Over." My heart shattered as I relived those memories. "I'll be back." I said to the girls as I ran outside, my tears falling down my cheeks. I never cried, and mainly that heartbreak caused me to become the person I am today, that way I'm the bully, I break hearts. Not the other way around. I guess Harry's different. He didn't fall for my charm, but I wish that someone will, someone who will love me for me and not just want a one time fling because of my reputation. I may look tough, and act tough, but that is all just dramatic effect. They are all the walls I've built to protect myself from these situations. I had promised myself not to cry and to be strong, but something about what Harry said, it brought back recollections of Daniel and immediately tore all the barriers I had built down, causing my pain to return. Life is never on my side. 

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Yay!! Val and Harry r back together!! Michaela is really mean,.....but I do feel some sympathy for her in this chapter. Daniel...what do u think?? I hope you enjoyed!! :)