KiKasa RP - Black Magic

Chapter 15

Kasamatsu's POV

[ I might as well make some spaghetti if he wanted noodles or something. you can't live on instant ramen. I wasn't the greatest cook but I still managed somehow. He said I have an hour so it was decent time to make it anyway. When it was done I set it aside inside a pot. He would choose if he wants it or not or how much he wanted. Worse case scenario my parents will get more to eat when they return later in the night. At some point I heard a knock on my door, and I tensed. I just realized how weirdly romantic it must have sounded for me to make him food suddenly. Well, it was probably a weirdly romantic instinct, because I never used to make any of my kohai's food when they come here for team meetings. Granted though, usually my mom does it anyway. Uh, whatever, he's waiting at the door, I gotta go open it. I went to the door quickly, opening it. There he was in his full uniformed glory. Ah, Kise... the fact that you're a model is just too obvious sometimes. I hope I haven't looked too much like with my white shirt and light blue shorts, which were coupled with some very obvious black rings around my eyes created from exhaustion. I moved my side and let him in. ]
"...Hi."
[ What do I say in this situation? So awkward... I like him, he knows, and he lost his feelings to me. Fuck... Nevermind, ask him about food. Food is a topic that saves all chats. ]
"I ended up making spaghetti. We can still make the instant ramen you talked about though.."   

Kise's POV

[I raised my eyebrows, gazing at him in surprise as I stood stunned in place in the lounge area. Thinking about him going through the trouble of making food for me amazed me. Was what we had yesterday that great that he felt the need to do it? Though, as he said, he looked as if he hadn't slept at all. Exhausted and depressed was written all over his face and you didn't have to be a genius to notice that. It made me feel bad.. and also in debt. It was my fault he's like this.] "Spaghetti is awesome. We can eat later though, I'm not that hungry. I wanna talk... about yesterday, if you don't mind, you know?"
[I cocked my head over to his room, since the living room area felt too open and privacy lacking for a conversation about that matter. When we reached his room I quickly took a sit on his bed, refraining from doing any action that'll get him to panic. After all I did kiss him straight after we got into my room last night, and he seemed so taken aback... he even cried. It was the first time I saw senpai, and it made me miserable just thinking about it. Taking a deep breath, I chose a corner in the room to focus on, since I found it fairly difficult to look him in the eyes. He had black rings under his eyes which seemed paler from the tiredness, his hair a little messy, as if he forgot to brush his morning bedhead. I found it cute, actually. Wait, cute? Have I just found senpai cute?]
"I, uhm... how do I start?.. yesterday, well, you know what happened, senpai. I've been bothered by the memories of yesterday all day long. I mostly remember things I said, and the importance I associated with the love I had for you, even if it was because of a spell..."
[My eyes automatically wandered to him and I could recognize the pain my words inflicted on him. Quickly I forced myself to look away and get to the point.] "So I got to the conclusion I wanted to know what yesterday felt like. I don't mean, like, I'm not gonna force nothing like you or anything! Just... if you wanna tell me what it was like to you."
[Thinking about the things I said yesterday, I found myself agreeing with most parts now that I was here in front of him. Indeed I've always found the blue shade of his eyes the most beautiful I've even seen. Even prettier than Chihiro's deep brown ones. His eyes had always hypnotized me... when he was angry, when he laughed with me, when we had important conversation he'd stare at me like that I'd feel important for some reason, even special. His body was perfect in my opinion, still. Built just to the right amount of muscle. I think I'm too tall for a guy, and not all people like it, but Senpai's height is just right... Senpai's tendency to take care of me was also a huge plus, and it showed up once again with him actually making me food, even though he didn't have to. His personality, the serious look in his eyes that could switch into a cheerful or a mad one in a split second. His smiles, smirks, frowns, scowls, everything was so beautiful about this guy... but what would it feel like to actually love him? I like him now, but what step to i need to take to be in love with him over my head once again?... right, I need to know everything about him.]