Elle's secret boyfriend .

leaving home

I was confused owing to the changing perplexities my parents put me through.
Last evening, I was snuggling on my bed with my book, as slouching and reading on the bed  gave me a quite painful sting on my neck. So I positioned myself on the bed sideways so that I needn't bear the weight of the book which was tiring my hands. But I must tell, lying on same position for past three hurts my shoulder, not that I am going to change my position until the ache gets totally unbearable.I am more interested in the protagonist than my shoulder's ache. It was then my mom intervened,barging into my room her hand covered with white specks of flour, she was kneading it for dinner I hope. I gave her a puzzled look.

"Why are you wasting your time reading the book, did you send the documents?  Why aren't you not packing? "

"but mom, you asked me not to go"i stuttered.

"it is once in a lifetime opportunity. "she exclaimed as she traipsed outside the room,  not to mention tiny white specks flour did spill on my room. I am not a cleanliness Nazi, I don't care but I noticed because my mom is one. I wonder what has gotten into her head.

Night while dinner,
Mom"i wish you don't go".

"Mom please you gotta be kidding me, you told me to go, now you tell me not to... What in god's name should I do? "I exclaimed.

"I am just confused "she replied.

I stared at the food, scamming to edges of the plate with my spoon. I lost my appetite or I thought so for a fraction of a second. But food is my love, so gave up negative feelings and gobbled up food. Stress eating is the excuse I provide here.

I am not sure what am I to do. My parents are behaving weird, I kind of feel they are possessed but somewhere deep down in my heart I know it is because they are concerned. But does that realisation make it less annoying? absolutely not.when your daughter is in a dilemma, parents are obliged to provide her moral support and not to aggravate her dire feeble insecurities.

I port on the cab with dad who will be sending me off .Whereas my siblings and mom sobbed pathetically inducing me to yelp and weep like an animal.

Ruben ran to me stared into my eyes and asked"Is he more important to you than me? "
I was startled, "no ruben"i tried to explain.
"don't lie to me sister, if you ever cared for me you will not be leaving "he said stashing my hand away from his and running out of the room . Ruben is really mature for his age I realised.
"he is sad, he will be alright soon"mom pacified me.
He threw a pained glare at me.

There were tears, and promises. All my little siblings kissed me good bye soaken in their tears, but my eyes searched for Ruben who was missing.

It was painful, hurts a great deal than it should.... I really loved my family.
I board on the flight with insecurities, fear and reluctance. I wished to run back home... It was my decision there is no turning back now. Allan here I come.... As if he cares.