Elle's secret boyfriend .

I wish I could tell you.

My arms enveloped over Allan, leaning on his torso I sat. Absolutely considering the circumstances we are going through and indeed the fact of our strained not so sure relationship, I must not have resorted to such bash expression of emotions. I missed him so much and I am not sure how to hold back. The turbulence of emotions wrecked out.
I pulled back wiping my tears on my sleeve. "I missed you so much, I am sorry".
He smiled pulling me into an another hug. I eased on him.  I felt a belonging in his embrace. 
"how are you doing? "he asked.
I wanted to yell on the top of my lungs that I am not alright,where were you all this time? Do you even care for me? I wanted to tell him I was hospitalised and all you cared about was your work ,how cruel his secretary was to me, how Mike is here, we ended up in same class. I wanted to tell him how disgusted I felt when Mike kissed me without my consent. I wanted to shout at the top of my voice..... Why Allan? Do you even care?  are you here or is it just a dream which withers as the dawn tickles in.

"I am fine"was all I managed staring at my legs.

"you are sure"he asked.

"yes "I said sporting a false smile.

He whisked my hair, rummaging a bit. He sat on my bed and directed me to sit next to him.

He looked into my eyes earnestly .Those emerald green eyes bore into mine. I broke down tears jeering down my cheeks.
"what happened? "he asked
"nothing "I said.
"my dearest Elena.... "he started.
I adore the way he pronounces my name. The fact he utters my name swarms a set of butterflies in my stomach.
"I must...."he said brushing my wet cheeks with tip of his fingers.
His mobile rang disrupting our conversation. I sighed in relief as he attended the call. I wish he would never know his single touch renders me insane.
"it's important I gotta go, see you later"he said pulling me into a hug and kissing me on the forehead.
He rushed out as his body guard asked him"did you tell her? "
"may be later"he said fixing on me a longing painful look.
His phone rang again. He looked at the caller, the pained expression which outlined his face was replaced by an expression of rage.
He walked away throwing the phone away .It shattered in pieces which one of his bodyguards collected and paced to keep up with him.

I lay on my bed sleepless. My room mate rarely comes to room providing me more time for introspection. Allan disturbs me to the core. He is the most confusing and indeed the most captivating. I wish to give these thoughts a rest but only if I can. I decided not to think about Allan and ended up spending a whole night worrying about him.