Chasing The Sun

What Happened To Us?

So it's just us against the world,
And we won!
I should have been happy, 
We were on top of the world now,
I should have been filled with glory.

Instead I hurt,
I hurt everyday after our victory.
Weren't we meant to be free now?
It was just us, 
What we fought for,
We were meant to be happy.

We kept on fighting,
Kept on saying  "I don't want to lose you,"
And you always said "I'll always be with you no matter what,"
But these were just words to you.

And I was the only one fighting for us,
Keeping you happy ,
And turned away to cry,
Turned back smiling with tears in my eyes,
Cheeks still wet,
Eyes still crimson ,
And you never noticed.

I tried telling you,
But not even a sound was heard,
Or maybe no sound got out!

So I left,
And left you a note on your bed,
"I'm sorry but I have to go,
Sometimes we have to be selfish,
Even with those we love.
And selfishness is not selflessness,
But sometimes self love,
I'm being selfish so I can be happy,                                                                                                                                              But I have to look for peace and happiness within me, alone!                                                                                                    I won't take long, I promise,                                                                                                                                                                  I'll be back before you know it.                                                                                                                                                                                             Wait for me please, 
I'm sorry I have to leave.
I love you, and always will.
I'm a call away when you need me,
Forever!"

And I didn't know,
That that would be our last day, 
That we'd ever get lost in each other's eyes.
When I look at you I see wrath and hatred,
Because you say I hurt you when I left, (I did -Sorry,)
But you wouldn't listen that I had to.
And I gave up trying to explain,
Trying to get the hurt from your hurt.

Though I couldn't stop loving, caring,
And I don't think I ever will,
But leaving was the best thing I ever did, (yet my biggest regret,) 
But I'm happy again, (though I still miss having you in my life)
No such tears,
That had more density than all oceans, seas and rivers combined.
But your hatred stopped you from moving on,
Moving on to bliss. (just took a while)

This selfishness got me this happy, (yet took away the greatest,)
We might not be on top of the world anymore, 
But at least my state is better, (later, so will yours)

But I live in fear, 
Fear of getting hurt again ,
Fear of breaking hearts again,                                                                                                                                                  Fear of loving or falling involve again. 

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