At First Sight

Chapter 14- Heart Attack

Natalie woke up with a guilty feeling still lingering around her. She threw on a large t-shirt over her bra and then put sweatpants on. She walked downstairs into her kitchen. When she looked up her parents were sitting with Niall. Niall.

"Shit." She mumbled under her breath.

"Hi sweetie." Her mom said walking up to hug her. "How are you feeling today?"

"I think I'm gonna throw up." Natalie answered. She actually felt sick now. She couldn't look at Niall.

"Can we have a minute alone?" Her mom asked Niall and her dad.

"Sure." Niall and her dad responded at the same time. Natalie's mom led her outside onto the patio. She sat down and Natalie hesitated before sitting.

"So, are you going to tell me or should I just make an easy guess?" Her mom examined Natalie. Natalie stayed quiet and looked away. "That's what I thought." Her mother sighed loudly and grabbed Natalie's hands.

"Mom.."

"No, Natalie. I know what happened. I heard Harry leave in the middle of the night. I heard you talking. I heard everything Natalie. It's wrong. You know how worried Niall has been? He has called me everyday this whole entire week wondering how you are doing because you won't answer your fucking phone. Natalie you gotta start talking and tell him what happened or I will."

"Mom you can't fucking control my life. That's all you do!" Natalie stood up and starting walking towards the door. She knew Niall and her dad could hear everything once they started screaming at each other.

"Natalie come back here right now!" Her mom yelled.

Natalie turned around and stuck up both of her middle fingers. "Fuck you mom. Fuck you." And with that she ran upstairs, grabbed a bag, and took Niall's arm and dragged him outside. She got in his car and told him to drive far away. She couldn't bear to think about her mother's face after she yelled at her.

"Tell me everything." Niall wouldn't look at her and she could see his blank expression. He knew something.

"Niall it's a long story..It.."

"Isn't it always 'a long story' Natalie? You need a new excuse." His tone stung her a bit.

"Fine. I will start with the night in the cemetery." She sighed. She didn't know where to begin.

"Fine." He said interrupting her thoughts.

"Well I had a brother, Kyle, and he died almost three years ago. I just turned fourteen...He died in a car accident the same night..." She couldn't go on. She started sobbing. Niall was silent for a moment until he realized what she was about to say. She slammed on the breaks then pulled over on the side of the road. "He died with his girlfriend the same...night your...parents died. I'm sorry..I'm sorry..I'm really sorry Niall. For every...thing." She couldn't breathe anymore. She tried to slow down her crying but she couldn't. Niall didn't do anything to help her. He just sat there, not even looking at her, his own tears forming in his eyes.

After fifteen minutes passed of nothing but the sound of Natalie's sobs and the occasional car passing by, Niall finally looked at her. "It wasn't your fault, Natalie." He then grabbed her hand. "It wasn't your fault." His words made her cry louder for a moment but she then calmed down.

"That's why I started drinking at fourteen. I did and I hate myself because of it. I couldn't stop drinking. When I was fifteen I had my somach pumped twice..twice. You know how bad that is? Since my parents are so fuckng rich they paid off on everything. I went to a depression therapist for a year and hated it. But it did help. There was times when I thought about committing suicide so I could be with my brother. He was a really good boy. Just that one night, that one fucking night he had to drive and kill himself with three other people." She was crying again, but not as much. "And this whole week, ever since you told me what happened to your parents...I started drinking more and more. I hid the bottles from my parents, never left my room. Only to get food, but that was once. I was too sick to eat anything. And then yesterday I called Harry. I cheated on you Niall. I fucking cheated on you. And then Harry told me he loved me right before we were about to have sex, and I couldn't. I broke down just like I am now. I've cried more this whole week than I have my whole life. I was thinking about going to buy a gun, becuase I fuck everything up. Even the person I love the most, I fucked him over." Right as she said those words she turned to look at him. He was crying and he looked sad. Like someone just died. His eyes were empty just like her body was. She was empty. "I am a terrible person." She was whispering now. "I fucking hate myself." And with that she broke down again.

"I don't know what to say." Niall finally said, still in shock. Not one thing she just spilled out to him sunk in. Until he went over everything she said. He needed to comfort her make her feel better, like a boyfriend was supposed to do. But he couldn't. He couldn't move. "Natalie, I think I'm done."