It's my life

Dunno what to DO

Alright so......

I have a major crush on this girl at my school.She's sooo amazing,smart,talented and funny.I really-really like her.The problem is though that I like another guy who I feel exactly the same I do as my girl crush.

Now it's just a matter of who's the one.I mean I don't know if any of the two like me as much as I do them.I'm not used to people liking me.It's something entirely new to me so I can't yet identify if someone actually like me.

I may sound dumb right now but it's how I feel and it brakes me down completely and I stay up late contemplating what the fuck to do.The guy is maybe going to move to Australia when the year ends and I can't lose another someone.I already lost more than HALF my friends.He is also more than a friend to me.I am friends with my two crushes and an actual friend(meaning I don't have a crush on her)and that's it.

I have NO ONE else but them.I'm so scared to lose them that I FUCKEN hurt myself any way possible to make it seem like an accident or not visible.I am dying inside and no one truly understands how much I'm suffering.All I need right now is someone to be there and comfort me.No one does that anymore.

Anyway enough of my stupid emotional breakdown about things that don't matter.

If you have the same problem as me you can talk to me.I won't judge you for ANYTHING and I mean anything.Even if you murdered someone I'll help and support you.Nothing on earth can make you so bad that you have to be all alone.Every little thing matters even if it sounds stupid.

We all are here for you pal and we shall concor that demon of yours.One step at a time